I am trying to do my homework tonight but I can't. I have something weighing heavy on my mind. Most would say that it is really none of my business, but I just cannot let it go. It is so unsettling and disturbing. I have wanted to have something real interesting to say on this blog, and I guess that this qualifies, but it is disturbing none the less.
My nephew D is the best young man. He is smart, ambitious, musically gifted, truly living for Christ and only 19 years old. I love him to death!! I want my boys to grow into as lovely as a young man as their cousin is. Where's the problem you ask? Well, he is secretly dating a 26 year old woman that attends our church. I know her well and I am NOT a fan. Because I know my nephew is strong in his convictions, I am certain that they are not having sex, but I know that if he is in a serious relationship that eventually he will be looking to get married. His parents married young and have had a successful marriage, so he will try to emulate their relationship. I am all for that, but not so soon. Since this young lady is a serial dater who is chomping at the bit to be married, talk will soon lead to this. My D is in his Sophomore year of college and desiring to be a psychologist. In order to make a better salary he wants to get his Master's soon after his undergrad. He also wants to make his mark on the music industry. He is very loving, funny and more mature than any other teenager that I have met. As you can see, he is a really great package for another young co-ed, not this old chick!!!
This girl is not that bright to me and she is kinda stuck up. She sometimes acts as if she is so holy and spiritual that she is heads and tails above most. She does the stereotypical long brown hair, light bright skin and big booty. I don't think that her face is all that, but her shape is banging. I want to be tight like her. Like I said before, she is a serial dater, and while there is nothing wrong with dating lots of guys and keeping your options open, she usually gets serious with a guy fast. She tells him from the jump that she is looking for a husband. I guess that at 26 your mind could be there, but she had this mentality at 21. I bet that there have been 10 guys that she brought to church that were going to be her future hubby. Since one of our former church members got hitched and had a precious baby boy T has been salivating. She even got "engaged" to a fiiione dude last year. He was a good guy, worked two jobs, believed in having a small of a debt as possible and he was her age. I thought that they were the cutest couple. Yes, he was a little boring but with him you know that the paycheck will come home and that he will be where he says he will be. I mean, what is there to ask for. Anyway they were "engaged" because she was pushing for marriage, he kinda just went along for the ride. When he stalled on buying the ring she confronted him and he admitted that he was not ready to get married, but he still loved her. She broke it off, called him a liar, told anyone who would listen that he led her on. It was a big mess. He still tried to pursue her, but she wasn't having it. At about this time my nephew D broke up with his high school gf and this is when the two of them began to bond over their broken hearts.
Jump to eight months later, and they are seeing each other on the DL. Their parents are aware of their feelings and are trying to get them to stop and think about what they are doing, but my nephew says that he is letting God do this and that this is God's will. I ain't so sure!!!!
What I cannot understand is what she a 26 year old woman would want with this 19 year old boy. I know that I still see him as my Little Bean, but my God, what is wrong with this girl. I just found out about this by looking at pictures on Facebook. When I talked to him last night he said that they are surprised that it took this long for me to figure it out.
I know that I do not have any say in his life, but I am still messed up about it. I guess that I worry about this happening to my kids one day. One day soon I will not be able to have a say in their lives and relationships.
So, what do you readers have to say about this? Am I overreacting?
SassyMe ;)
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Sunday, April 4, 2010
my so called sassy life
I have not been posting a lot, so I have not shared too much of my life and what has brought me to this point. I may not be able to share too much because it is kinda painful. So here goes.
Well, I am the eldest child of an overachiever that got knocked up by an underachiever. Not olny dies that make me a child of divorce, but a conflicted one at that. Well that overachiever did not get to take advantage of the full State School scholarship, so she went to work at night after the divorce to support me and the little sister that came along. Since my mother was so young and in the big (not very) city the old folks back home insisted that we (me and the runt) come live with them so that we wouldn't be raped. (You know, in the big city) So we did. For 6 years I lived with the Grandma and the Old Grandma. I excelled in school, grew breasts, got my period and had my first boyfriend. Life was good. That was until I started sassing (hence the moniker) the Grandma. The Old Grandma had passed on a couple years before. She was the only one who could out sass me without using the back of her hand. So that meant that we needed to move back to the big city and I started middle school and living with the Mom. Major fireworks ensued. I too am an overachiever: Honor roll, National Honor Society, All County Chorus, Soprano Section Leader, Superior Standing in State Solo Competition, Outfielder Softball... the list goes on... but like I said, that underachiever/slacker mentality is in me too and that did not bode well with the Mom. Screaming, yelling, slamming doors, throwing stuff ... Not good. All of this info is a set up for things to come...
All in all we had a great life that got better when my mom remarried. She married a man that is not my dad but he IS my Dad! He is my champion against the Mom and the Runt. No matter what, he believes in me. I am truly a Daddy' Girl. (smile) A stepsister and brother also came with the deal.
So the underachiever part reared it's head again in my Senior year. I was madly in love with the devil and I persued him relentlessly, shamelessly until I got what I wanted. He was a year younger do I had a hard time leaving him to go away to college. I absolutely had to because the overachieving mom did not get to go to college, so she was living vicariously through me.
Whew, I think that this enough for now... This next part is where it gets kinda hairy.
Well, I am the eldest child of an overachiever that got knocked up by an underachiever. Not olny dies that make me a child of divorce, but a conflicted one at that. Well that overachiever did not get to take advantage of the full State School scholarship, so she went to work at night after the divorce to support me and the little sister that came along. Since my mother was so young and in the big (not very) city the old folks back home insisted that we (me and the runt) come live with them so that we wouldn't be raped. (You know, in the big city) So we did. For 6 years I lived with the Grandma and the Old Grandma. I excelled in school, grew breasts, got my period and had my first boyfriend. Life was good. That was until I started sassing (hence the moniker) the Grandma. The Old Grandma had passed on a couple years before. She was the only one who could out sass me without using the back of her hand. So that meant that we needed to move back to the big city and I started middle school and living with the Mom. Major fireworks ensued. I too am an overachiever: Honor roll, National Honor Society, All County Chorus, Soprano Section Leader, Superior Standing in State Solo Competition, Outfielder Softball... the list goes on... but like I said, that underachiever/slacker mentality is in me too and that did not bode well with the Mom. Screaming, yelling, slamming doors, throwing stuff ... Not good. All of this info is a set up for things to come...
All in all we had a great life that got better when my mom remarried. She married a man that is not my dad but he IS my Dad! He is my champion against the Mom and the Runt. No matter what, he believes in me. I am truly a Daddy' Girl. (smile) A stepsister and brother also came with the deal.
So the underachiever part reared it's head again in my Senior year. I was madly in love with the devil and I persued him relentlessly, shamelessly until I got what I wanted. He was a year younger do I had a hard time leaving him to go away to college. I absolutely had to because the overachieving mom did not get to go to college, so she was living vicariously through me.
Whew, I think that this enough for now... This next part is where it gets kinda hairy.
Friday, April 2, 2010
Good Friday
Hello all. I have been an awful Christian. I have been shopping all day with the Chreasters. You know, the folks who only go to church on Christmas and Easter. I had the best time though. I had lunch @ the Cheesecake Factory and shopped at JCPenney. I bought a killer outfit. I cannot wait to post a picture. Such fun! I know, it doesn't take much, does it?
But the reason for Sunday has nothing to do with chocolate and eggs. It has to do with what began today, 2000+ years ago. Our Savior was hung on the cross and died. But the story did not end there. He went down to sheol (Hades, place where souls went to await the Rapture) and fought the devil and He rose with all power in His hand. He has given us power over death. If we accept Christ as our Savior we don't have to fear death and where we will spend our eternity. I love You Jesus! Who would do that? If I had the power to come down off of that cross and strike my persecutors dead, I know I would! There is no doubt in my mind. I would go off like Carrie at the prom!! But Jesus didn't. He endured physical and mental anguish for hours and then went down to sheol to defeat the powers of evil and take His faithful to Heaven.
So on this Good Friday night take the time to thank Jesus for His sacrifice and begin to work on getting closer to Him. I know that I will!
Love and Peace and May God's Grace be with you...
But the reason for Sunday has nothing to do with chocolate and eggs. It has to do with what began today, 2000+ years ago. Our Savior was hung on the cross and died. But the story did not end there. He went down to sheol (Hades, place where souls went to await the Rapture) and fought the devil and He rose with all power in His hand. He has given us power over death. If we accept Christ as our Savior we don't have to fear death and where we will spend our eternity. I love You Jesus! Who would do that? If I had the power to come down off of that cross and strike my persecutors dead, I know I would! There is no doubt in my mind. I would go off like Carrie at the prom!! But Jesus didn't. He endured physical and mental anguish for hours and then went down to sheol to defeat the powers of evil and take His faithful to Heaven.
So on this Good Friday night take the time to thank Jesus for His sacrifice and begin to work on getting closer to Him. I know that I will!
Love and Peace and May God's Grace be with you...
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
I lied...
Ok, I did it. I went to the doctor on Monday, expecting to hear that I have strep, but I don't. Yay!!! But I do have fluid in every single orifice. Yuck!!! It comes from allergy irritation. My doctor says that we have not been aggressive enough in our allergy treatment so she put me on 2 nasal sprays, Zyrtec, Sudafed (the kind you make meth with) and a NetiPot. That is alot of crap!!! I hate to spray anything up my nose, so you know this was not going to go well.
Well I went to the pharmacy and I was unable to get one of the nasal sprays because my insurance requires prior approval. I was like WHAT!??!?!?! They wont even let me pay the highest copay (50 bucks) to get it. I am not sure what I need to do to get it, but I am pissed. I mean, what if this was a life or death type of situation? I can do without this medicine but not high blood pressure or heart meds. I cannot imagine having to go home to my sick child or loved one and say that the meds that the doctor told us would give you relief are not available to us. What is the reason? Money I guess. I hope that this health care bill can do something about this.
So back to the gross stuff... I did not buy a NetiPot which is a teapot looking thing that you put warm water and salt into and pour water into your nose through the spout. It is supposed to clean out your sinuses, but I haven't seen anything in the two times that I used it. I have however, almost drowned because I wanted to breathe through my nose. And choked because water came through my sinuses into my mouth!!! YUCK and DOUBLE YUCK!!!!
I have started to feel somewhat better, but these meds are going to cost a blooming fortune. I spent $25 for copay, $15 for one nasal spray, $16 for Zyrtec, $5 small Sudafed, $12 for the Netipot and $10 for the antibiotic just in case my sinuses don't dry up (which they haven't) anf Diflucan for the inevitable yeast infection . That comes to a whopping $83. I cannot do this every month. I can't really afford to do this THIS month!!! Times like these I say Jesus take the wheel!!!
Sassy
Well I went to the pharmacy and I was unable to get one of the nasal sprays because my insurance requires prior approval. I was like WHAT!??!?!?! They wont even let me pay the highest copay (50 bucks) to get it. I am not sure what I need to do to get it, but I am pissed. I mean, what if this was a life or death type of situation? I can do without this medicine but not high blood pressure or heart meds. I cannot imagine having to go home to my sick child or loved one and say that the meds that the doctor told us would give you relief are not available to us. What is the reason? Money I guess. I hope that this health care bill can do something about this.
So back to the gross stuff... I did not buy a NetiPot which is a teapot looking thing that you put warm water and salt into and pour water into your nose through the spout. It is supposed to clean out your sinuses, but I haven't seen anything in the two times that I used it. I have however, almost drowned because I wanted to breathe through my nose. And choked because water came through my sinuses into my mouth!!! YUCK and DOUBLE YUCK!!!!
I have started to feel somewhat better, but these meds are going to cost a blooming fortune. I spent $25 for copay, $15 for one nasal spray, $16 for Zyrtec, $5 small Sudafed, $12 for the Netipot and $10 for the antibiotic just in case my sinuses don't dry up (which they haven't) anf Diflucan for the inevitable yeast infection . That comes to a whopping $83. I cannot do this every month. I can't really afford to do this THIS month!!! Times like these I say Jesus take the wheel!!!
Sassy
Sunday, March 21, 2010
No, I don't wanna! You can't make me!
I have been told that I am a stubborn person. Once I get an idea into my head I will not let it go. I only see things my way... yeah, so??!?!?!??! I guess that this post is a perfect illustration of that.
Yesterday was wonderful!!! The sun was shinning brightly, the air was warm and I had my car with sunroof and NO kids!!! I enjoyed myself immensely. I should have known that something would happen... yes, at the end of that glorious afternoon I began to feel a familiar scratchiness in my throat! I just knew that it was just pollen, but when I woke up this morning, I see the white patches in my throat. I am going to make an appointment to see the Dr. tomorrow.
I made it all winter without getting too sick. I only had the one ear infection but no strep. I am praying that this is not strep this time. My Dr. said that the next time I got it that we would seriously have to talk about having my tonsils taken out. NO!!!!! I don't wanna!!
Well, when I go tin there tomorrow she is going to get an earful. I am not gonna get surgery... Uhn Uhn, now way not gonna happen... Then she will say that I need to take my allergy meds EVERY day (which I don't) and use the Netti Pot to clean out my sinuses. I will say ok (I'm lying) and then go get my drugs--amoxicillin and diflucan... for the you know where b/c antibiotics have that effect on me.
But I won't take that allergy mess everyday nor will I put salt water UP MY NOSE!!!! Nope, not gonna happen! (That is my stubbornness!)
Sassy
Yesterday was wonderful!!! The sun was shinning brightly, the air was warm and I had my car with sunroof and NO kids!!! I enjoyed myself immensely. I should have known that something would happen... yes, at the end of that glorious afternoon I began to feel a familiar scratchiness in my throat! I just knew that it was just pollen, but when I woke up this morning, I see the white patches in my throat. I am going to make an appointment to see the Dr. tomorrow.
I made it all winter without getting too sick. I only had the one ear infection but no strep. I am praying that this is not strep this time. My Dr. said that the next time I got it that we would seriously have to talk about having my tonsils taken out. NO!!!!! I don't wanna!!
Well, when I go tin there tomorrow she is going to get an earful. I am not gonna get surgery... Uhn Uhn, now way not gonna happen... Then she will say that I need to take my allergy meds EVERY day (which I don't) and use the Netti Pot to clean out my sinuses. I will say ok (I'm lying) and then go get my drugs--amoxicillin and diflucan... for the you know where b/c antibiotics have that effect on me.
But I won't take that allergy mess everyday nor will I put salt water UP MY NOSE!!!! Nope, not gonna happen! (That is my stubbornness!)
Sassy
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Great News!!!
Wow! it has been awhile since I have posted! The month of February was the longest and coldest that I can remember... If it snowed one more time I was going to shoot somebody!!! This is North Carolina doggone it! Now, we have touches of spring... warm weather means pedis, so I am making an appointment to the spa as soon as I can get another free moment...
Now to my news... I bought a car!!! Yay me!!! Finally, i was able to get rid of that thousand year old Saturn... I bought a 2002 black Jetta. Yes, i know that it is not new, but it is new to me. Since the repo of the Altima from the marriage with the devil, I have had jacked up, i mean JACKED up, credit. My ex brother in law, D, hooked me up... He dropped the price $2500 , but with the interest rate, somebody is still getting that money. Oh well, I look at it as a way to rebuild my credit so I can purchase a home. That is my ultimate goal. When I graduate I will be sitting pretty with a $10,000 a year increase in salary and decent credit... Thank you Jesus!!!
I have to give Him the praise because He is the one that made this possible. No, I don't want to make a car payment and yes, I will be stretched, but I won't be sitting on the side of I-40 anymore with my kids...
Back to the car... It is black with beige cloth interior, power windows and locks (thank ya, the Saturn did not have them) and a sunroof. I love it!!! The best part is that even though it is 7 years old, it only had 58,000 miles on it!!!! I will post pics soon. This is the first car that I have purchased by myself. Phillip (the devil) and I bought the Mazda and the Altima together and my parents paid for most of the Saturn.
I am so happy!!! I am thankful for the chance to purchase this car and praying to God that He helps mt to keep it. I guess that I need to look for a summer job... I applied to Harris Teeter for a cashier position. I hope that I get it. It is less than a 1/2 mile from the house. I am also going to apply at my favorite store-- JC Penney. I hope that I get that one and that I don't spend up all of my money there... LOL
Good nite all, I need to get ready for church tomorrow because it will be daylight savings times-- a loss of one hour of sleep, but more daylight for the sunroof!!!!
Also, I am so stoked that I, me, have a follower... I guess that I have to post more often. My life is not that interesting though, but THANKS!!! for wanting to know more about Sassy me!!!
Peace, love and wind blowing through my blowout,
Sassy
Now to my news... I bought a car!!! Yay me!!! Finally, i was able to get rid of that thousand year old Saturn... I bought a 2002 black Jetta. Yes, i know that it is not new, but it is new to me. Since the repo of the Altima from the marriage with the devil, I have had jacked up, i mean JACKED up, credit. My ex brother in law, D, hooked me up... He dropped the price $2500 , but with the interest rate, somebody is still getting that money. Oh well, I look at it as a way to rebuild my credit so I can purchase a home. That is my ultimate goal. When I graduate I will be sitting pretty with a $10,000 a year increase in salary and decent credit... Thank you Jesus!!!
I have to give Him the praise because He is the one that made this possible. No, I don't want to make a car payment and yes, I will be stretched, but I won't be sitting on the side of I-40 anymore with my kids...
Back to the car... It is black with beige cloth interior, power windows and locks (thank ya, the Saturn did not have them) and a sunroof. I love it!!! The best part is that even though it is 7 years old, it only had 58,000 miles on it!!!! I will post pics soon. This is the first car that I have purchased by myself. Phillip (the devil) and I bought the Mazda and the Altima together and my parents paid for most of the Saturn.
I am so happy!!! I am thankful for the chance to purchase this car and praying to God that He helps mt to keep it. I guess that I need to look for a summer job... I applied to Harris Teeter for a cashier position. I hope that I get it. It is less than a 1/2 mile from the house. I am also going to apply at my favorite store-- JC Penney. I hope that I get that one and that I don't spend up all of my money there... LOL
Good nite all, I need to get ready for church tomorrow because it will be daylight savings times-- a loss of one hour of sleep, but more daylight for the sunroof!!!!
Also, I am so stoked that I, me, have a follower... I guess that I have to post more often. My life is not that interesting though, but THANKS!!! for wanting to know more about Sassy me!!!
Peace, love and wind blowing through my blowout,
Sassy
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Valentine's Day
This weekend is Valentine's Day. Some part of me is excited about the event this weekend, but there are some parts of me not so excited. I have lots of things going for me like school, my future and great kids, but I have no man... I miss sex... I really miss sex... I could have a man if I were going to have sex before marriage, but that ain't happening. So, here I sit, trying to fulfill my sexual needs with my kids, reading, school work and food. I have been going heavily on the food... but that's another post.
I hope that this singles event will be fun. If I can have fun and loosen up a bit I might be able to quit thinking about SEX! I need to stop reading Eric Jerome Dickey. He is sooo steamy in his sex scenes. MMM so good. But I wish that P and I could hook up.I know that my weight is an issue for him, but I think we can be good together. But if he can't see that, maybe some other guy can. This singles event is supposed to open up more guys to me but there will only be other chicks there so my purpose for the event is defeated! Maybe somebody will bring some guys. I have to stay positive and realize that God will send me the man for me when he think that it is time. (but I am impatiently waiting)
I am praying that some things will turn around for me this month. God, you know how I love You and what I need from You. I know that what You have planned for me is great so I need to stay in Your will, and seek You first.
Doing that will ensure my success!!! I love You, Lord.
I hope that this singles event will be fun. If I can have fun and loosen up a bit I might be able to quit thinking about SEX! I need to stop reading Eric Jerome Dickey. He is sooo steamy in his sex scenes. MMM so good. But I wish that P and I could hook up.I know that my weight is an issue for him, but I think we can be good together. But if he can't see that, maybe some other guy can. This singles event is supposed to open up more guys to me but there will only be other chicks there so my purpose for the event is defeated! Maybe somebody will bring some guys. I have to stay positive and realize that God will send me the man for me when he think that it is time. (but I am impatiently waiting)
I am praying that some things will turn around for me this month. God, you know how I love You and what I need from You. I know that what You have planned for me is great so I need to stay in Your will, and seek You first.
Doing that will ensure my success!!! I love You, Lord.
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