This weekend is Valentine's Day. Some part of me is excited about the event this weekend, but there are some parts of me not so excited. I have lots of things going for me like school, my future and great kids, but I have no man... I miss sex... I really miss sex... I could have a man if I were going to have sex before marriage, but that ain't happening. So, here I sit, trying to fulfill my sexual needs with my kids, reading, school work and food. I have been going heavily on the food... but that's another post.
I hope that this singles event will be fun. If I can have fun and loosen up a bit I might be able to quit thinking about SEX! I need to stop reading Eric Jerome Dickey. He is sooo steamy in his sex scenes. MMM so good. But I wish that P and I could hook up.I know that my weight is an issue for him, but I think we can be good together. But if he can't see that, maybe some other guy can. This singles event is supposed to open up more guys to me but there will only be other chicks there so my purpose for the event is defeated! Maybe somebody will bring some guys. I have to stay positive and realize that God will send me the man for me when he think that it is time. (but I am impatiently waiting)
I am praying that some things will turn around for me this month. God, you know how I love You and what I need from You. I know that what You have planned for me is great so I need to stay in Your will, and seek You first.
Doing that will ensure my success!!! I love You, Lord.
