So, for all that bravado and trash talking a few months ago, I am in poor condition now. I tried to keep him out of my head, but it didn't work. We started seeing each other again after Memorial Day and then boom, out of the blue, he stops seeing me and then finally drops a bombshell.
He has kicked his girlfriend out and is moving another woman in... What!??!?! I am DEAD! I feel as if I cannot go on...
I am such a wreck that I don't know what to even say or do.... just now able to post. I don't want to think or really talk about this, but if I can't do it here on this blog, where can I be honest.
I love him with every fiber of my being. I am tortured at the fact that he has dumped me again and I let him do this to me. I feel more than foolish... I am so angry with myself and that I have wasted another year of my life on this man. This will translate into 2 years, because I feel almost like I am going through my divorce all over again. So I won't feel like talking to anyone or even feel like I can trust anyone else for a loooonnngggg time. I think that this loss of time is upsetting me the most.
I cannot even talk about it anymore...
