So, for all that bravado and trash talking a few months ago, I am in poor condition now. I tried to keep him out of my head, but it didn't work. We started seeing each other again after Memorial Day and then boom, out of the blue, he stops seeing me and then finally drops a bombshell.
He has kicked his girlfriend out and is moving another woman in... What!??!?! I am DEAD! I feel as if I cannot go on...
I am such a wreck that I don't know what to even say or do.... just now able to post. I don't want to think or really talk about this, but if I can't do it here on this blog, where can I be honest.
I love him with every fiber of my being. I am tortured at the fact that he has dumped me again and I let him do this to me. I feel more than foolish... I am so angry with myself and that I have wasted another year of my life on this man. This will translate into 2 years, because I feel almost like I am going through my divorce all over again. So I won't feel like talking to anyone or even feel like I can trust anyone else for a loooonnngggg time. I think that this loss of time is upsetting me the most.
I cannot even talk about it anymore...
I'm soooo sorry Sassy!!!! Just take this as a learning experience,, you named him the Devil for a reason and now you truly know why. You know now not to be fooled by the sheep clothing. I pray you find peace with him and this situation. Keep your head up!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks... I am still messed up, but I know that this is for the best! Yeah, I named him Devil for a reason... I really should have known, but I thought that he had grown up. Oh well!
DeleteThe heart makes us do crazy things.
DeleteWow.... he is a jerk... he broke two hearts at once without blinking. i think it would be best if you stay far away from him, as barbie said, there is a reason why you referenced him as the devil in previous post.
ReplyDeleteYep, a jerk. I am so sad at the horrible person he has become. I think that is what upsets me the most. If he had not used me and just said, I don't think that this is working out, I could have respected him more. I mourn for the person he used to be and who I fell in love with... We have kids, so it is hard to stay away, but I will do it the best that I can.
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