OMG, really trying to keep the panties on!!!!

I am not ready to play with the big boys! T is really coming on strong and I am fading fast. I was with him the other night and he was all over me. At first he was flirtatious and then he became touchy. Our group was finalizing the set for our next gig , so it was a long, intense rehearsal. I was trying to get some studying in while the musicians were getting a part right, when he came over to where I was and began to massage my neck. FLOOD! (I know, I know-- but you have to remember that I am NOT having sex and I won't until I get married.)
Anyway, I maneuver away from him and we sit and talk. I had been planning for all of us to take a trip out of town and stay in a really posh hotel for the weekend after Thanksgiving. Since that Thursday is my Birfday (YAY!!) I thought that it would be a great treat for me too. He thought that it was a great idea and the rest of the band got in on our conversation and agreed. But we are not going since Nic's baby has a birthday himself that weekend. But mah boo is insisting that the two of us go! NOOOOOO!!! I will not be able to resist him at all if we are alone for two days in a hotel room. I can just see him dragging his dreds over my naked body.............. smh

Oh and he smelled sooooo good. He had just got his hair done and that Kente oil was killin me! lol He smelled like mmmm. Okay, let me stop. I have to stay holy. I am also trying to keep real feelings out of it.

BTW, I had dinner last night with P and his sister, after church. He is still fine. Grown man fine. And that is all I have to say about that (Forrest Gump voice)

So chirren, be prayin' for me as I try to keep my panties on in this time of temptation with this fiooone, dred-locked 28 year old. AMEN

I almost forgot my song for this post..... A little old school by my girls Salt and Peppa SHOOP!

Me and Mr.

I have been missin' for more than a minute, but I am back, for now. The past 2 months have been whirlwind. So "Let's Start at the Beginning - A Very Good Place to Start."

I met the cutest guy! He is cute, a teacher, a musician, a song writer, has sexxy dreds and is into me. SO what's the problem? I'll get to that later.

I met him through my nephew D. He came to our church one Sunday. I thought that he was young like D, and I was going to hook him up with one of the other young girls. I noticed him watching me all during service and I couldn't help but watch him too. I did not get to speak to him much that day, but he turned up again the next Sunday. I noticed him looking again, so I decided to speak to him. We talked for a few minutes after church and I found out that he was 27. Hmmm. He looked 18 or 20, so I was like yum! We Facebooked and got to know each other a little better. Had fun at IHOP at 3 am. Danced and talked at the club. Then I got the shock of all shocks... this nigga be married! WTF?! and he used to date Little Miss Crazy. Double WTF!??! If you don't know who she is read THIS and THIS.

Oh, BTW, he is in the band that I sing in. I see him every Tuesday and Sunday for hours on end. All of the music concerts that I have been to or places I've gone to hear some music T has shown up. Almost like he is following me. He invites me to go dancing. He has written songs for me. He loves my voice he says. I make his heart smile he says. GAG! To be completely honest, he and his wife are separated and have been for over a year. I know what you are saying, "he will say anything to hit!" I thought so too, but this situation has been confirmed by several people, including one of S's (his wife)friends. I even met her. I really like her. She doesn't seem threatened by me or anyone else. Weird!

Needless to say, I have not been alone with T too much, but the heat is there. (smile) I know that I should not get into anything with him, but it is hard not to. Slap me please!!!! He makes me feel so young. When we first met he thought that I was younger than him! I will be 37 in November. If I had not just been mistaken for a High School Senior a few weeks ago, I would have thought that he was lying, but my new hair cut really makes me look young. It doesn't hurt that all of these young girls look broke and busted nowadays either.

Other than carrying on this elicit affair.... wait, we have not slept together, so I'll say elicit friendship, I have been studying, working and reading. Our band has had setbacks. Out drummer and bass player left the group at the beginning of September.... 2 weeks before our first show. We still killt it with tracks though!

My kids are still alive and are doing well in school. J is playing lacrosse and trying out for wrestling. DS is eating everything and making music all hours of the night.

This thing with T has taken a lot of my mental energy, so I have not had much time for my other friends. But I do realize that I was not completely wrong about P. He is jealous of all the time that I have been spending with T. T has noticed how P acts when he is around. It has been very interesting to say the least. Even my ex-husband is jealous. He was leaving my house with the kids one day when T pulled up. My youngest texted me and said "Daddy wants to know who the F was that?" I texted the ex back and said, "Good Dick!" LOL!!! That was actually the best part of the whole summer!

I will admit that I have become a little fixated on T. He makes me feel good. He thinks that I am funny, smart, sexy. He is always full of compliments, jokes and hugs. I haven't felt that way in a loooong time. Maybe that is why he is in my life right now, just to boost my self esteem. God knows that it took a hit with that Lil Miss Crazy and P incident. (shudder) As long as I keep my panties on and my money in my pocket I'll be okay.

So what do you think?