Okay, so the Professor and the little chickie are not together. I don't know what happened, but it's a no go between the two of them. She posted on FB that she was with her someone special, but she was out of town in another state. Besides I was with the Professor about 2 hours before she posted that message. You would think that I would be jumping up and down because of this especially since P was all in my face on Saturday. But no, I am not. Why? Because I am not sure of what kinda game is being played right now. Every time we are talking to each other people pass by and smile this crazy smile. Saturday we were at a cookout with a few friends. We teased each other like usual but I really felt nothing. I have resigned myself to the fact that he doesn't want me. It wasn't until we were packing up to leave the park that he and I had a chance to be alone. He was always asking me to help him with something. Hand me this, open that... We just had some small talk about church but then he reached out and touched my hand. I just looked up at him, smiled and continued to pick up my stuff. He smiled the most beautiful smile at me and turned and walked away. I felt butterflies all over again. What. is. wrong. with. me??? Am I totally crazy!??!?!
Today we really didn't talk much because he had a meeting with the deacons of the church. I waited for him so I could talk to him about some Sunday School business. He was cordial, but short with me. WTH? Maybe he had somewhere to go. He did say that he wanted to talk later, maybe @ church on Wednesday, but I am going out with the homies for dinner and music.
Am I reaching? Could this be a figment of my fertile imagination? It occurred to me that what I think is interest is really him being a gentleman. You know, a nice person. I guess I am not used to being treated nice by guys that don't want something. That is a sad tale for my life....
Anyway, maybe I am crazy .... but here goes. The theme song of my divorce and apparent current delusion:
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