Did I Turn Him GAY?????

The other night my best friend, CaraMEL and I, were going down memory lane, recalling our wild times in college. She and I had some definite ho activities going on.... smh... lol

Anyway, I started to reminisce about the first guy I attempted to have sex with at college. His name was Byron and he was a Junior. His cousin was dating one of my suite mates so we hung out a lot.  I met him outside of one of my speech classes and he and I connected over music and books. He had been one of the drum majors the year before, but had been sidelined due to a foot injury, so he had lots of free time for me.

So, we all went to a game in another town and got a room for the night. He had it all set up really nice. Music, strawberries, Boone's Farm (yes, the romantic-est of grocery store wines) and flowers. I was so excited!!! We got into bed and began kissing and stuff and then he tried to stuff the BIGGEST penis I had ever seen (and seen since) into my 18 year old vagina!!!! I was like, "Ohmigod, NO!" I tried to get him to slow down and do something else, but he still kept trying. I went to the bathroom and put a wet washcloth between my legs. I began to talk to myself and psyche myself up for going back out there. "I can do this... I am a Spartan (got that from NC17)... I have made boys cum at the drop of a hat... My stuff is good stuff!!!!"

I marched back out there ready to put it on him and he pounced on me again. OMIGOD!!!(now if I knew then what I know now, I'd made him lick it or something!!! I was not ready at all-- he was trying to split me wide open!!)

Anyway, I tried to make the best of it but I couldn't. Well, it actually didn't matter anyway... He kept trying to push in and came!!! He was like, "ummm girl, you must have some good stuff, because I came before I got it in." At the time, I was not an expert on sex and my own body, but I knew something was up.

The rest of the night was great. We cuddled, ate and watched TV. He didn't seem mad at all. We didn't really see each other much after that night. No hard feelings, we just didn't cross paths after my suite mate and his cousin broke up.

I heard a few months later that people were suspecting that Byron was GAY!!!If that is so, our encounter made a lot of sense. He didn't try to get some juices flowing down there + he liked it tight= butt wrangler. He was a Junior, at least 21 years old, you would think that he would know how to get a woman aroused.

Now this might not be funny to you, but now, all these years later-- I was dying laughing with Mel. I mean real tears down my face because this was hilarious. I had really just come to the this realization while I was talking to Mel. **This fione upperclassman was probably confused about his sexuality and tried to act hetero with me-- a young, hot in the tail freshman.  I thought he was so cool for not being upset that we didn't do the do, but he was not really even interested! Did I turn him gay or did I just help him realize that vagina was not his cup of tea!

I have tried to find out if anyone from college remembers him and knows where he is, but I haven't had any luck.

Has anyone ever had this happen to them? Have you  been with someone and then find out that they were gay sometime later? Talk to me...

Lord, Help!

I am trying to do my homework tonight but I can't. I have something weighing heavy on my mind. Most would say that it is really none of my business, but I just cannot let it go. It is so unsettling and disturbing. I have wanted to have something real interesting to say on this blog, and I guess that this qualifies, but it is disturbing none the less.

My nephew D is the best young man. He is smart, ambitious, musically gifted, truly living for Christ and only 19 years old. I love him to death!! I want my boys to grow into as lovely as a young man as their cousin is. Where's the problem you ask? Well, he is secretly dating a 26 year old woman that attends our church. I know her well and I am NOT a fan. Because I know my nephew is strong in his convictions, I am certain that they are not having sex, but I know that if he is in a serious relationship that eventually he will be looking to get married. His parents married young and have had a successful marriage, so he will try to emulate their relationship. I am all for that, but not so soon. Since this young lady is a serial dater who is chomping at the bit to be married, talk will soon lead to this. My D is in his Sophomore year of college and desiring to be a psychologist. In order to make a better salary he wants to get his Master's soon after his undergrad. He also wants to make his mark on the music industry. He is very loving, funny and more mature than any other teenager that I have met. As you can see, he is a really great package for another young co-ed, not this old chick!!!

This girl is not that bright to me and she is kinda stuck up. She sometimes acts as if she is so holy and spiritual that she is heads and tails above most. She does the stereotypical long brown hair, light bright skin and big booty. I don't think that her face is all that, but her shape is banging. I want to be tight like her. Like I said before, she is a serial dater, and while there is nothing wrong with dating lots of guys and keeping your options open, she usually gets serious with a guy fast. She tells him from the jump that she is looking for a husband. I guess that at 26 your mind could be there, but she had this mentality at 21. I bet that there have been 10 guys that she brought to church that were going to be her future hubby. Since one of our former church members got hitched and had a precious baby boy T has been salivating. She even got "engaged" to a fiiione dude last year. He was a good guy, worked two jobs, believed in having a small of a debt as possible and he was her age. I thought that they were the cutest couple. Yes, he was a little boring but with him you know that the paycheck will come home and that he will be where he says he will be. I mean, what is there to ask for. Anyway they were "engaged" because she was pushing for marriage, he kinda just went along for the ride. When he stalled on buying the ring she confronted him and he admitted that he was not ready to get married, but he still loved her. She broke it off, called him a liar, told anyone who would listen that he led her on. It was a big mess. He still tried to pursue her, but she wasn't having it. At about this time my nephew D broke up with his high school gf and this is when the two of them began to bond over their broken hearts.

Jump to eight months later, and they are seeing each other on the DL. Their parents are aware of their feelings and are trying to get them to stop and think about what they are doing, but my nephew says that he is letting God do this and that this is God's will. I ain't so sure!!!!

What I cannot understand is what she a 26 year old woman would want with this 19 year old boy. I know that I still see him as my Little Bean, but my God, what is wrong with this girl. I just found out about this by looking at pictures on Facebook. When I talked to him last night he said that they are surprised that it took this long for me to figure it out.

I know that I do not have any say in his life, but I am still messed up about it. I guess that I worry about this happening to my kids one day. One day soon I will not be able to have a say in their lives and relationships.

So, what do you readers have to say about this? Am I overreacting?

SassyMe ;)