So I am watching the ghettofabulous Real Ho Wives of the ATL and Kandi is talking about getting back into the game after her fiance died. I think that it may be too soon, but that is just my opinion. He died in October of 2009 but they were already separated, so maybe she had moved on mentally well before then. Anyway, on the season premiere Kandi is dating a real nice looking NFL player and she tells him about the bet she has with a friend on remaining celibate until December 31, 2010. He seemed not to be able to handle that until he asked if oral sex was part of the deal. She said that she could still participate in oral sex and still be in compliance with the bet.
Ok, I thought that we had settled this back in 1998 with Monica and Bill. Oral sex is sex to me! If he can lick it right I can get off just as well as if he sticks it in. So anything with sex in it -- oral, vaginal, phone-- is sex to me. If my man gets a BJ from or gives head to another woman I would be just as pissed as if he had vaginal intercourse with her. That would be a deal breaker!
So what do you think? I am very interested to know...
Here is my old school jam for this post!! We don't have to take clothes off by Jermaine Stewart. Ironically, he died of AIDS in 1997.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Saturday, October 9, 2010
OMG, really trying to keep the panties on!!!!
I am not ready to play with the big boys! T is really coming on strong and I am fading fast. I was with him the other night and he was all over me. At first he was flirtatious and then he became touchy. Our group was finalizing the set for our next gig , so it was a long, intense rehearsal. I was trying to get some studying in while the musicians were getting a part right, when he came over to where I was and began to massage my neck. FLOOD! (I know, I know-- but you have to remember that I am NOT having sex and I won't until I get married.)
Anyway, I maneuver away from him and we sit and talk. I had been planning for all of us to take a trip out of town and stay in a really posh hotel for the weekend after Thanksgiving. Since that Thursday is my Birfday (YAY!!) I thought that it would be a great treat for me too. He thought that it was a great idea and the rest of the band got in on our conversation and agreed. But we are not going since Nic's baby has a birthday himself that weekend. But mah boo is insisting that the two of us go! NOOOOOO!!! I will not be able to resist him at all if we are alone for two days in a hotel room. I can just see him dragging his dreds over my naked body.............. smh
Oh and he smelled sooooo good. He had just got his hair done and that Kente oil was killin me! lol He smelled like mmmm. Okay, let me stop. I have to stay holy. I am also trying to keep real feelings out of it.
BTW, I had dinner last night with P and his sister, after church. He is still fine. Grown man fine. And that is all I have to say about that (Forrest Gump voice)
So chirren, be prayin' for me as I try to keep my panties on in this time of temptation with this fiooone, dred-locked 28 year old. AMEN
I almost forgot my song for this post..... A little old school by my girls Salt and Peppa SHOOP!
Anyway, I maneuver away from him and we sit and talk. I had been planning for all of us to take a trip out of town and stay in a really posh hotel for the weekend after Thanksgiving. Since that Thursday is my Birfday (YAY!!) I thought that it would be a great treat for me too. He thought that it was a great idea and the rest of the band got in on our conversation and agreed. But we are not going since Nic's baby has a birthday himself that weekend. But mah boo is insisting that the two of us go! NOOOOOO!!! I will not be able to resist him at all if we are alone for two days in a hotel room. I can just see him dragging his dreds over my naked body.............. smh
Oh and he smelled sooooo good. He had just got his hair done and that Kente oil was killin me! lol He smelled like mmmm. Okay, let me stop. I have to stay holy. I am also trying to keep real feelings out of it.
BTW, I had dinner last night with P and his sister, after church. He is still fine. Grown man fine. And that is all I have to say about that (Forrest Gump voice)
So chirren, be prayin' for me as I try to keep my panties on in this time of temptation with this fiooone, dred-locked 28 year old. AMEN
I almost forgot my song for this post..... A little old school by my girls Salt and Peppa SHOOP!
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Me and Mr.
I have been missin' for more than a minute, but I am back, for now. The past 2 months have been whirlwind. So "Let's Start at the Beginning - A Very Good Place to Start."
I met the cutest guy! He is cute, a teacher, a musician, a song writer, has sexxy dreds and is into me. SO what's the problem? I'll get to that later.
I met him through my nephew D. He came to our church one Sunday. I thought that he was young like D, and I was going to hook him up with one of the other young girls. I noticed him watching me all during service and I couldn't help but watch him too. I did not get to speak to him much that day, but he turned up again the next Sunday. I noticed him looking again, so I decided to speak to him. We talked for a few minutes after church and I found out that he was 27. Hmmm. He looked 18 or 20, so I was like yum! We Facebooked and got to know each other a little better. Had fun at IHOP at 3 am. Danced and talked at the club. Then I got the shock of all shocks... this nigga be married! WTF?! and he used to date Little Miss Crazy. Double WTF!??! If you don't know who she is read THIS and THIS.
Oh, BTW, he is in the band that I sing in. I see him every Tuesday and Sunday for hours on end. All of the music concerts that I have been to or places I've gone to hear some music T has shown up. Almost like he is following me. He invites me to go dancing. He has written songs for me. He loves my voice he says. I make his heart smile he says. GAG! To be completely honest, he and his wife are separated and have been for over a year. I know what you are saying, "he will say anything to hit!" I thought so too, but this situation has been confirmed by several people, including one of S's (his wife)friends. I even met her. I really like her. She doesn't seem threatened by me or anyone else. Weird!
Needless to say, I have not been alone with T too much, but the heat is there. (smile) I know that I should not get into anything with him, but it is hard not to. Slap me please!!!! He makes me feel so young. When we first met he thought that I was younger than him! I will be 37 in November. If I had not just been mistaken for a High School Senior a few weeks ago, I would have thought that he was lying, but my new hair cut really makes me look young. It doesn't hurt that all of these young girls look broke and busted nowadays either.
Other than carrying on this elicit affair.... wait, we have not slept together, so I'll say elicit friendship, I have been studying, working and reading. Our band has had setbacks. Out drummer and bass player left the group at the beginning of September.... 2 weeks before our first show. We still killt it with tracks though!
My kids are still alive and are doing well in school. J is playing lacrosse and trying out for wrestling. DS is eating everything and making music all hours of the night.
This thing with T has taken a lot of my mental energy, so I have not had much time for my other friends. But I do realize that I was not completely wrong about P. He is jealous of all the time that I have been spending with T. T has noticed how P acts when he is around. It has been very interesting to say the least. Even my ex-husband is jealous. He was leaving my house with the kids one day when T pulled up. My youngest texted me and said "Daddy wants to know who the F was that?" I texted the ex back and said, "Good Dick!" LOL!!! That was actually the best part of the whole summer!
I will admit that I have become a little fixated on T. He makes me feel good. He thinks that I am funny, smart, sexy. He is always full of compliments, jokes and hugs. I haven't felt that way in a loooong time. Maybe that is why he is in my life right now, just to boost my self esteem. God knows that it took a hit with that Lil Miss Crazy and P incident. (shudder) As long as I keep my panties on and my money in my pocket I'll be okay.
So what do you think?
I met the cutest guy! He is cute, a teacher, a musician, a song writer, has sexxy dreds and is into me. SO what's the problem? I'll get to that later.
I met him through my nephew D. He came to our church one Sunday. I thought that he was young like D, and I was going to hook him up with one of the other young girls. I noticed him watching me all during service and I couldn't help but watch him too. I did not get to speak to him much that day, but he turned up again the next Sunday. I noticed him looking again, so I decided to speak to him. We talked for a few minutes after church and I found out that he was 27. Hmmm. He looked 18 or 20, so I was like yum! We Facebooked and got to know each other a little better. Had fun at IHOP at 3 am. Danced and talked at the club. Then I got the shock of all shocks... this nigga be married! WTF?! and he used to date Little Miss Crazy. Double WTF!??! If you don't know who she is read THIS and THIS.
Oh, BTW, he is in the band that I sing in. I see him every Tuesday and Sunday for hours on end. All of the music concerts that I have been to or places I've gone to hear some music T has shown up. Almost like he is following me. He invites me to go dancing. He has written songs for me. He loves my voice he says. I make his heart smile he says. GAG! To be completely honest, he and his wife are separated and have been for over a year. I know what you are saying, "he will say anything to hit!" I thought so too, but this situation has been confirmed by several people, including one of S's (his wife)friends. I even met her. I really like her. She doesn't seem threatened by me or anyone else. Weird!
Needless to say, I have not been alone with T too much, but the heat is there. (smile) I know that I should not get into anything with him, but it is hard not to. Slap me please!!!! He makes me feel so young. When we first met he thought that I was younger than him! I will be 37 in November. If I had not just been mistaken for a High School Senior a few weeks ago, I would have thought that he was lying, but my new hair cut really makes me look young. It doesn't hurt that all of these young girls look broke and busted nowadays either.
Other than carrying on this elicit affair.... wait, we have not slept together, so I'll say elicit friendship, I have been studying, working and reading. Our band has had setbacks. Out drummer and bass player left the group at the beginning of September.... 2 weeks before our first show. We still killt it with tracks though!
My kids are still alive and are doing well in school. J is playing lacrosse and trying out for wrestling. DS is eating everything and making music all hours of the night.
This thing with T has taken a lot of my mental energy, so I have not had much time for my other friends. But I do realize that I was not completely wrong about P. He is jealous of all the time that I have been spending with T. T has noticed how P acts when he is around. It has been very interesting to say the least. Even my ex-husband is jealous. He was leaving my house with the kids one day when T pulled up. My youngest texted me and said "Daddy wants to know who the F was that?" I texted the ex back and said, "Good Dick!" LOL!!! That was actually the best part of the whole summer!
I will admit that I have become a little fixated on T. He makes me feel good. He thinks that I am funny, smart, sexy. He is always full of compliments, jokes and hugs. I haven't felt that way in a loooong time. Maybe that is why he is in my life right now, just to boost my self esteem. God knows that it took a hit with that Lil Miss Crazy and P incident. (shudder) As long as I keep my panties on and my money in my pocket I'll be okay.
So what do you think?
Friday, August 13, 2010
Step in the Name of Love
Went stepping with my young buck tonight. It was fun, but I cannot dance! I need to hang with my white friends so I can seem like I can dance.
He is so smooth on the floor that it has me thinking of other things that he is smooth with Yummm!
My friend Melanie came too. She had a good time without the kids and the husband. We are planning to go again next week. I can't wait!!!!
So the song for this week is....
R. Kelly's Happy People
Sassy
He is so smooth on the floor that it has me thinking of other things that he is smooth with Yummm!
My friend Melanie came too. She had a good time without the kids and the husband. We are planning to go again next week. I can't wait!!!!
So the song for this week is....
R. Kelly's Happy People
Sassy
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Living My Life Like It's Golden
I have had a great 2 weeks. I finished all of my summer school classes: A, B and B, respectively. have signed up for two dating sites, met a new guy (complicated ain't even the word) and have been singing with the best band around. We's gone be HOT!! I cannot wait!!!
In other words, I have been living my life for me, letting go of all of my childish thoughts and obsessions. Reading my older posts have been enlightening. I remember some of the frustration and emotion behind the posts, but I was whining too. I HATE whiners... I know that I will probably whine some more---it's MY blog ya know. But I will try to make more of an effort to have my big girl panties on.
I was also obsessed with a man that is weird. He is my friend and someone that I can talk to for hours but I don't think that we will ever have a romantic relationship. Matter of fact, we talked last Wednesday for 3 hours about sex, church, friends, family. I found out some more things about the Professor that confirm that he is not the man for me. ***Let me tell you a secret*** The deal breaker is that he thinks that oral sex is nasty!!! Getting and giving!!! When he couldn't even say "oral sex" I was like "Unt Uh. I could not do this." I told him too and he said that he knew that I was a freak! So is oral sex freaky? I thought it was normal. So that is closed. We are still friends, I still find him extremely attractive, but I think that I can just have him as a friend. Now the girl keeps cutting her eye at me like she wants to get knocked out!!!
Anyway, the new guy plays in our band. He is 10 years younger, but he thought that I was his age too!!! The complications come in with his off and on marriage...yes marriage... he is younger, he has been friends with my nephew for a minute and we are doing business together. I cannot Ish where I eat! We have a flirtatious understanding that makes me feel really good. The attention is wonderful. There is no touching-- just smiles, looks and comments. We have not exchanged numbers nor have we added each other on Facebook. I want to keep that stuff to a minimum. I know how it feels to be cheated on and I don't really want to have that over my head. So, Tre is a confidence booster. A fine, dreaded one at that.
I am also just so excited about this band. My nephew is lead singer. He is awesome. I sing back up with his sister Ash, a great singer in her own right and another vocal beast, Nicole. The band is hot too. Bev plays bass. He can stroke that thang, just riiight. Martez plays drums like Animal on The Muppet Show. He is really good. Tre' plays keys and he can write a song like no other.
Now, some might say, Y'all probably ain't all that! You just think that you are 'cause you the one singing. NOT!!!! I am my toughest critic. We all are perfectionists that rag on ourselves about getting it right. I saw the DVD of our practice last night and I was blown away. The blend, the music , the harmonies--the whole thing was magic. Can't wait to have the single recorded.
So life is good with me right now! I have been having a great time ,singing great music, with great people. This weeks theme song is....
You guessed it: Jill Scott's Golden
In other words, I have been living my life for me, letting go of all of my childish thoughts and obsessions. Reading my older posts have been enlightening. I remember some of the frustration and emotion behind the posts, but I was whining too. I HATE whiners... I know that I will probably whine some more---it's MY blog ya know. But I will try to make more of an effort to have my big girl panties on.
I was also obsessed with a man that is weird. He is my friend and someone that I can talk to for hours but I don't think that we will ever have a romantic relationship. Matter of fact, we talked last Wednesday for 3 hours about sex, church, friends, family. I found out some more things about the Professor that confirm that he is not the man for me. ***Let me tell you a secret*** The deal breaker is that he thinks that oral sex is nasty!!! Getting and giving!!! When he couldn't even say "oral sex" I was like "Unt Uh. I could not do this." I told him too and he said that he knew that I was a freak! So is oral sex freaky? I thought it was normal. So that is closed. We are still friends, I still find him extremely attractive, but I think that I can just have him as a friend. Now the girl keeps cutting her eye at me like she wants to get knocked out!!!
Anyway, the new guy plays in our band. He is 10 years younger, but he thought that I was his age too!!! The complications come in with his off and on marriage...yes marriage... he is younger, he has been friends with my nephew for a minute and we are doing business together. I cannot Ish where I eat! We have a flirtatious understanding that makes me feel really good. The attention is wonderful. There is no touching-- just smiles, looks and comments. We have not exchanged numbers nor have we added each other on Facebook. I want to keep that stuff to a minimum. I know how it feels to be cheated on and I don't really want to have that over my head. So, Tre is a confidence booster. A fine, dreaded one at that.
I am also just so excited about this band. My nephew is lead singer. He is awesome. I sing back up with his sister Ash, a great singer in her own right and another vocal beast, Nicole. The band is hot too. Bev plays bass. He can stroke that thang, just riiight. Martez plays drums like Animal on The Muppet Show. He is really good. Tre' plays keys and he can write a song like no other.
Now, some might say, Y'all probably ain't all that! You just think that you are 'cause you the one singing. NOT!!!! I am my toughest critic. We all are perfectionists that rag on ourselves about getting it right. I saw the DVD of our practice last night and I was blown away. The blend, the music , the harmonies--the whole thing was magic. Can't wait to have the single recorded.
So life is good with me right now! I have been having a great time ,singing great music, with great people. This weeks theme song is....
You guessed it: Jill Scott's Golden
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Checking In...
I am still here and still standing. On to the next one. Having fun. Sorta like a Cougar!!! I'll check in l8ter!
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Vivian Greene sure knew what she was talking about...
Okay, so the Professor and the little chickie are not together. I don't know what happened, but it's a no go between the two of them. She posted on FB that she was with her someone special, but she was out of town in another state. Besides I was with the Professor about 2 hours before she posted that message. You would think that I would be jumping up and down because of this especially since P was all in my face on Saturday. But no, I am not. Why? Because I am not sure of what kinda game is being played right now. Every time we are talking to each other people pass by and smile this crazy smile. Saturday we were at a cookout with a few friends. We teased each other like usual but I really felt nothing. I have resigned myself to the fact that he doesn't want me. It wasn't until we were packing up to leave the park that he and I had a chance to be alone. He was always asking me to help him with something. Hand me this, open that... We just had some small talk about church but then he reached out and touched my hand. I just looked up at him, smiled and continued to pick up my stuff. He smiled the most beautiful smile at me and turned and walked away. I felt butterflies all over again. What. is. wrong. with. me??? Am I totally crazy!??!?!
Today we really didn't talk much because he had a meeting with the deacons of the church. I waited for him so I could talk to him about some Sunday School business. He was cordial, but short with me. WTH? Maybe he had somewhere to go. He did say that he wanted to talk later, maybe @ church on Wednesday, but I am going out with the homies for dinner and music.
Am I reaching? Could this be a figment of my fertile imagination? It occurred to me that what I think is interest is really him being a gentleman. You know, a nice person. I guess I am not used to being treated nice by guys that don't want something. That is a sad tale for my life....
Anyway, maybe I am crazy .... but here goes. The theme song of my divorce and apparent current delusion:
Today we really didn't talk much because he had a meeting with the deacons of the church. I waited for him so I could talk to him about some Sunday School business. He was cordial, but short with me. WTH? Maybe he had somewhere to go. He did say that he wanted to talk later, maybe @ church on Wednesday, but I am going out with the homies for dinner and music.
Am I reaching? Could this be a figment of my fertile imagination? It occurred to me that what I think is interest is really him being a gentleman. You know, a nice person. I guess I am not used to being treated nice by guys that don't want something. That is a sad tale for my life....
Anyway, maybe I am crazy .... but here goes. The theme song of my divorce and apparent current delusion:
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