Life has been really hectic. I cannot seem to keep up with my school work, my kids are losing their minds, my daddy is having a tumor removed from his kidney, the Young Buck has moved on....
There are so many things that have happened, I can't keep up!!
I had to cut my hours on my 2nd job, in order to catch up, so that cuts into my money. The Ex hubby is still not consistent with giving my money. Y'all please pray for me!
I am not that concerned about the Young Buck. It wasn't really going anywhere. Whatev....
D was caught smoking cigarettes after school one day. His dad did come to get in his face about that, but that was the last time they saw him... 2 weeks ago. D gave him a good cussin out though! Told him that I was his mom and DAD and that he could kick rocks!
J is playing lacrosse and doing well, but his grades leave much to be desired. He is doing well enough to be in sports and that is all.
I am so tired of being a parent on my own. This really sucks. i love them, but I want them gone-- only because I am sick of being solely responsible for them.
My dad got sick at the beginning of this year and went to the ER. There were several possibilities for his constant dehydration and the final diagnosis is a tumor in/on the kidney. I do not know specifics becuase I cannot handle it right now. His surgery is March 31st and they will not know if they can save the kidney until they get in there. I am praying for his complete healing and recovery. His is my everything... my dad, my
champion, my mediator with my mom, the father my kids need, my sounding board--My Daddy!!!!
I have this off my chest, so i can go to bed tonight. It has been weighing heavily in my spirit.
Good night all
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Here We Go Again...
I thought that this crap was over!!! How desperate can you be? How stupid can you be? I have to let this go, but I need to get some things off of my chest first.
I just got a phone call from one of my best friends. She told me to go to Facebookand look at my nephew's page. And there it was, he is in a relationship with that old woman, again!!! Unbelievable. If you have no idea what I am talking about, check out this post .
Anyway, I knew that something was going on with them because D's sister told me that she thought that they were together. She also came to one of our performances this past weekend. No big deal. He is going to be 21 in June and she will turn 28 before that. I still think that they are stupid, but I was not going to make waves over this until I saw the Facebook post. They have been together for many weeks now, but did not tell anyone or post to Facebook until it was official. Official!!????!?!?! This is not the 10th grade! You should not think that a Facebook post as a way of validating your relationship. So that's the problem for me. His head should kinda still be in that kid mentality, but her head should not. She is knocking on 30! I know that I sound like a fool, but I don't want him to throw his life or these good years away on this hussy!
I have have talked to one of my best friends about this, so I will have to out this out of my mind. I can't let it consume me like it did last April. Anyway people will just accuse me of being jealous because I don't have a man. That is not my reason for my feelings and they don't know what I have going on either!
Thanks for listening. I have a long day tomorrow and I need to pray and get this off of my heart.
SassyMe
I just got a phone call from one of my best friends. She told me to go to Facebookand look at my nephew's page. And there it was, he is in a relationship with that old woman, again!!! Unbelievable. If you have no idea what I am talking about, check out this post .
Anyway, I knew that something was going on with them because D's sister told me that she thought that they were together. She also came to one of our performances this past weekend. No big deal. He is going to be 21 in June and she will turn 28 before that. I still think that they are stupid, but I was not going to make waves over this until I saw the Facebook post. They have been together for many weeks now, but did not tell anyone or post to Facebook until it was official. Official!!????!?!?! This is not the 10th grade! You should not think that a Facebook post as a way of validating your relationship. So that's the problem for me. His head should kinda still be in that kid mentality, but her head should not. She is knocking on 30! I know that I sound like a fool, but I don't want him to throw his life or these good years away on this hussy!
I have have talked to one of my best friends about this, so I will have to out this out of my mind. I can't let it consume me like it did last April. Anyway people will just accuse me of being jealous because I don't have a man. That is not my reason for my feelings and they don't know what I have going on either!
Thanks for listening. I have a long day tomorrow and I need to pray and get this off of my heart.
SassyMe
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
A Surprise Today
I was on my way to work, a few minutes late because I had stopped at McDonald's for some oatmeal-- which I LOVE by the way--and who pulled up beside me at the light? Sighhhh! yes, it was him, my Young Buck. I had noticed a SUV that looked like his following me for about a mile, but I had no idea it was him. But I am so glad. It was good to see him.
He is a teacher too and his school is about 7 miles from mine. I guess that he was late and didn't care. He teaches high school English and Civics and they start way earlier than elementary schools. Anyway he was looking most delectable as he waved. The light turned green and I made the left, he kept straight. Oh what I would have given for a few minutes alone with him this morning!
The embarrassing thing is that he saw me doing the sing in the rear view mirror to the top of my lungs thing that I do in the car!!! I don't care who else sees me, but Young Buck... different story. lol
I won't see him this weekend because he is going to a Chicago Steppers thing in ATL. I'm gonna miss him. We have spent the last 3 Sunday afternoons together at rehearsal and dinner. *pout* I will be in full on withdrawal by next Sunday. I may take to my bed!!!
I finally got my kiss and it was okay, kinda rushed, but okay. (smile) We'll see what happens next time.
Have a great week y'all.... I have more to say but it is time for bed, so stay tuned for the recap of my kid's birthdays and how I ended up spending it with my ex!!
He is a teacher too and his school is about 7 miles from mine. I guess that he was late and didn't care. He teaches high school English and Civics and they start way earlier than elementary schools. Anyway he was looking most delectable as he waved. The light turned green and I made the left, he kept straight. Oh what I would have given for a few minutes alone with him this morning!
The embarrassing thing is that he saw me doing the sing in the rear view mirror to the top of my lungs thing that I do in the car!!! I don't care who else sees me, but Young Buck... different story. lol
I won't see him this weekend because he is going to a Chicago Steppers thing in ATL. I'm gonna miss him. We have spent the last 3 Sunday afternoons together at rehearsal and dinner. *pout* I will be in full on withdrawal by next Sunday. I may take to my bed!!!
I finally got my kiss and it was okay, kinda rushed, but okay. (smile) We'll see what happens next time.
Have a great week y'all.... I have more to say but it is time for bed, so stay tuned for the recap of my kid's birthdays and how I ended up spending it with my ex!!
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Shopping at Wally World
So, I went shopping today with my youngest boy-- D. It was an all day affair-- Walmart and Sam's. I spent Waaaaayy too much money, but we needed every bit of it.
While we were in Walmart we kept running across a particular Indian family. There were 2 kids, one woman and three men. Everywhere I went in Wally World I saw them congregating around the merchandise as if paying 32 cent more for a bottle of Clorox was going to cause a World War. I get that times are tough, I'm struggling pay check to check myself, but do you have to clog up the aisles with 6 people to buy some Tilex? Really!??!?!?!?! They stood right in the aisle talking with the Tilex in one and another cleaner in the other, with their cart and there were at least 5 other people trying to navigate the same aisle. I thought one woman was going to "kirk-off" on them. *Shout out to Lil Mama for the "kirk-off reference* She almost ran the little woman down!
I get that other cultures have a great respect for the extended family and that they are patriarchal societies, but really?!?!?! sheesh!
Since that is off my chest, I'm gonna get me a big ole yeast roll and some chicken salad and drink one of my industrial soft drinks and go to bed!!!
Sassyme
While we were in Walmart we kept running across a particular Indian family. There were 2 kids, one woman and three men. Everywhere I went in Wally World I saw them congregating around the merchandise as if paying 32 cent more for a bottle of Clorox was going to cause a World War. I get that times are tough, I'm struggling pay check to check myself, but do you have to clog up the aisles with 6 people to buy some Tilex? Really!??!?!?!?! They stood right in the aisle talking with the Tilex in one and another cleaner in the other, with their cart and there were at least 5 other people trying to navigate the same aisle. I thought one woman was going to "kirk-off" on them. *Shout out to Lil Mama for the "kirk-off reference* She almost ran the little woman down!
I get that other cultures have a great respect for the extended family and that they are patriarchal societies, but really?!?!?! sheesh!
Since that is off my chest, I'm gonna get me a big ole yeast roll and some chicken salad and drink one of my industrial soft drinks and go to bed!!!
Sassyme
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Music
I haven't posted a video in a minute so I am posting one for a song that has been running through my head for a minute...
I have always love, love, loved SWV- Sisters With Voices!
It has been a long time since I have really felt this way about anybody, but this song playing on repeat in my brain. Enjoy!
SassyMe
P.S. I know that this is gonna make me sound old, but THIS is real music and singing. That other crap out there can kick rocks man, bring back 90's R&B!
I have always love, love, loved SWV- Sisters With Voices!
It has been a long time since I have really felt this way about anybody, but this song playing on repeat in my brain. Enjoy!
SassyMe
P.S. I know that this is gonna make me sound old, but THIS is real music and singing. That other crap out there can kick rocks man, bring back 90's R&B!
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Hulu Magic
Happy New Year friends! Twenty- Eleven is destined to be a great year. I am moving towards my purpose professionally (teaching) & spiritually. So excited!
But today I am ensconced in front of my laptop watching Hulu. I am having a ball. Since the cable is off, (again- I'd rather buy boots & dresses than pay some bills. So sue me!) I have been watching all of the old shows that I loved that were cancelled. ABC had some really good shows like What About Brian? , Dirty Sexy Money, and Samantha Who? that were cancelled before they should have. They are really good shows! I have a queue with over 60 shows in it! Hulu also has the best thing ever... 21 Jump Street! I relish the hours I have to swoon over the pre-weird Johnny Depp. So hot!
Anyway, I cannot get enough of what is on Hulu. It is magic!
But today I am ensconced in front of my laptop watching Hulu. I am having a ball. Since the cable is off, (again- I'd rather buy boots & dresses than pay some bills. So sue me!) I have been watching all of the old shows that I loved that were cancelled. ABC had some really good shows like What About Brian? , Dirty Sexy Money, and Samantha Who? that were cancelled before they should have. They are really good shows! I have a queue with over 60 shows in it! Hulu also has the best thing ever... 21 Jump Street! I relish the hours I have to swoon over the pre-weird Johnny Depp. So hot!
Anyway, I cannot get enough of what is on Hulu. It is magic!
Last night I went to a pre Watch Night dinner party hosted by my good friends the Slaters. My other friends Prettyface & T- Bone were there as well. We had an absolute ball. Good food, good company & Wii Just Dance! I am in love! The bad thing is that we have XBox & no Kinect so I can't play the game. I guess that when tax time comes I'll be buying the Kinect & Dance Central for the XBox. I cannot wait. I hope that I keep this passion for the game. It is good exercise & baby I need it.
Another splenderific thing that happened is that our group finally went into the studio! It was the most exhilarating experience ever. I was nervous, but we sounded beautiful! I can't wait until the single is released. Since we are independent, it will be on CD Baby & iTunes instead of stores. I expect all of you, my readers to purchase a copy. You won't regret it. The links will be coming soon. Hopefully.
Young Buck was there & silly, attentive & flirty as ever. I just love the way he makes me feel. I forget that I have two almost grown kids @ home. I feel so young & carefree. He makes me want to do dangerous things! Not a good thing.... After the session, which is long & a lot of waiting for vocalists, we ate dinner @ Waffle House. Not 5 star, but adequate. He flirted like no tomorrow. He even tried for a kiss. You know, I might as well give up & give in. Kiss the man. He may be just what I am looking for. Maybe. Eyes, I know that you'll have some advice or some comment that will get me to thinking. I really appreciate that. I know that there are a couple others out there @ least passing through from time to time, I'd love to hear from you too.
I do have a new follower, Milky Way, so I'm up to three (yay!) & I've read your blog & girl you make a sistah have to think- I love it!
So that's my first blog of 2011. A little long, but all me!
Love you & have a blessed new year!
Sassyme
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Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Got Goals?
Hmmmmmm. Eyes, you asked if I had any goals for the New Year and I got to thinkin'.....
What is it I want to accomplish in 2011--0ther than paying my bills and not killing my kids and keeping them on the right track.
The thing that I kept coming up with is.... stop doing the same thing, falling in the same traps.
This pertains to men more than any other thing in my life. I need to stop chasing after the unavailable men in my life.
Man #1-- The Ex Husband... I must admit, I still carry a torch for the man he used to be to me. He is still sexy and can put it down, but he is not the husband, father and provider that he used to be. But he is also not the Devil that I have portrayed him to be. He's somewhere in the middle. He says that he still loves me, but I cannot go through that crap again.... So leave him alone.
Man #2-- The Professor... I really thought that I was going to marry this man, so much so that I told my ex husband how upset I was when the relationship didn't pan out. (But that was a ploy on my part to get some from the ex *yes*) I still am very attracted to him physically and financially, but he is not the man for me. He is so nerdy, part of his charm, and is a good Christian man, but there is no real chemistry there. So why can't I leave him alone?
Man #3-- The Young Buck... Such a tasty delight! Since his latest disappearance I have only had the chance to see him once. He was at band rehearsal on Sunday acting like his regular old self. I tried to keep my distance, but I couldn't. He had me laughing and flirting in no time. He even pushed all up on me and tried to get a smooch. That is where I drew the line though. I feel silly for asking him why he stood me up for my birthday, because this is supposed to be casual and all, but I feel misused. I can try to have a platonic flirtation--ship, but that is all it is going to be!!!
So, I haven;t really laid out any goals, other than leaving these fine, sexy, unavailable men alone. Isn't there anything else to my life? Hopefully buy the New Year I will have some more goals to put up. But what about you guys, do you have goals?
What is it I want to accomplish in 2011--0ther than paying my bills and not killing my kids and keeping them on the right track.
The thing that I kept coming up with is.... stop doing the same thing, falling in the same traps.
This pertains to men more than any other thing in my life. I need to stop chasing after the unavailable men in my life.
Man #1-- The Ex Husband... I must admit, I still carry a torch for the man he used to be to me. He is still sexy and can put it down, but he is not the husband, father and provider that he used to be. But he is also not the Devil that I have portrayed him to be. He's somewhere in the middle. He says that he still loves me, but I cannot go through that crap again.... So leave him alone.
Man #2-- The Professor... I really thought that I was going to marry this man, so much so that I told my ex husband how upset I was when the relationship didn't pan out. (But that was a ploy on my part to get some from the ex *yes*) I still am very attracted to him physically and financially, but he is not the man for me. He is so nerdy, part of his charm, and is a good Christian man, but there is no real chemistry there. So why can't I leave him alone?
Man #3-- The Young Buck... Such a tasty delight! Since his latest disappearance I have only had the chance to see him once. He was at band rehearsal on Sunday acting like his regular old self. I tried to keep my distance, but I couldn't. He had me laughing and flirting in no time. He even pushed all up on me and tried to get a smooch. That is where I drew the line though. I feel silly for asking him why he stood me up for my birthday, because this is supposed to be casual and all, but I feel misused. I can try to have a platonic flirtation--ship, but that is all it is going to be!!!
So, I haven;t really laid out any goals, other than leaving these fine, sexy, unavailable men alone. Isn't there anything else to my life? Hopefully buy the New Year I will have some more goals to put up. But what about you guys, do you have goals?
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