Yes, I finally went on a real date. Yay. (not enthused, can't you tell?) I went out with a friend of a friend. We have been texting and talking on the phone sparingly for about 5 months. He just didn't do it for me in conversation. He wanted to meet him at the fairgrounds for a barbeque selling during May. I was all for it, but dude was trying to sell me tickets! Uhhh, no! That was too much. Needless to say, I didn't go and we didn't speak for another 3 months. My friend who hooked us up saw him out somewhere and told me he was still single and he was looking good, so I texted him and we set up a date for last Saturday. Yes, we went out during a hurricane!
So here are the details:
Name: J
Age: 39
Marital Status: never been married
Occupation: works in a document storage facility
Looks: so-so-- he is tall and not too big, not too skinny, close hair cut-- just plain and regular
Dinner: TGIFriday's - and dude tried to use a coupon- FAIL
I tried to get him to go to the late show @ the cheap movies, but he wasn't game-- it would have ended too late for him-- suspicious!
Verdict: lukewarm- he still doesn't do it for me
We made tentative plans for a date sometime in the future, but it is Wednesday, and he hasn't called me yet. I guess that he wasn't impressed by me either. C'est le vie-- such is life.
What do y'all think?
SassyMe
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Sunday, July 17, 2011
God's Got a Blessing...
I have finally heard about my placement for student teaching in the fall... I am not that happy about it, but I do have a placement in a school where I know a few people. I am going to have to leave my job for this internship, but my parents are going to help me!! Thank You Jesus!
I do have a testimony though. I bet this sounds crazy after all the dick talk that has been going on, but that is the way my life goes. The way I think.... crazy, I know!
Anyway, I have been stressing about this placement because I wanted a particular school and I felt time was running out. School starts August 25 and I needed to know something... Well on Sunday my Pastor preached on "wearing the whole armor of God" and being prepared for the spiritual battles in life. He also touched on faith and he said that faith meant having patience. I began to pray right then for patience in finding out about my placement and I told God that I absolutely trusted Him to place me where I needed to be. Well, lo and behold, after waiting for 5 months I finally got the placement. And you know God, He decided to test what I said. He placed me with one of the craziest chicks I have ever seen! I haven't met her, but I have seen video of her on the local news. She was nominated as teacher of the week. In her video she had on a clown suit and her classroom was a cluttered mess!!! I hyperventilated when I figured it all out.... I freaked, called a few people, but now I'm calm. I know that God has placed me here for a reason. If I can make it in her classroom, I can make it ANYWHERE!
But the best part of this is that God came in right on time... I trusted Him and He honored that. I love You Jesus!!! I know that He will provide for me during my unemployment and that he will be on my side in dealing with this student teaching.
I'm glad that I have another person commenting now! I feel special! Yes, THAT kind of special.... LOL
Shout out to my road dawg Eyes on the Prize. She's hung in this with me for a long while now!!! Thanks, Shug!
Song of the Week
God's Got A Blessing (with your name on it) by Norman Hutchins
Good night y'all....
I do have a testimony though. I bet this sounds crazy after all the dick talk that has been going on, but that is the way my life goes. The way I think.... crazy, I know!
Anyway, I have been stressing about this placement because I wanted a particular school and I felt time was running out. School starts August 25 and I needed to know something... Well on Sunday my Pastor preached on "wearing the whole armor of God" and being prepared for the spiritual battles in life. He also touched on faith and he said that faith meant having patience. I began to pray right then for patience in finding out about my placement and I told God that I absolutely trusted Him to place me where I needed to be. Well, lo and behold, after waiting for 5 months I finally got the placement. And you know God, He decided to test what I said. He placed me with one of the craziest chicks I have ever seen! I haven't met her, but I have seen video of her on the local news. She was nominated as teacher of the week. In her video she had on a clown suit and her classroom was a cluttered mess!!! I hyperventilated when I figured it all out.... I freaked, called a few people, but now I'm calm. I know that God has placed me here for a reason. If I can make it in her classroom, I can make it ANYWHERE!
But the best part of this is that God came in right on time... I trusted Him and He honored that. I love You Jesus!!! I know that He will provide for me during my unemployment and that he will be on my side in dealing with this student teaching.
I'm glad that I have another person commenting now! I feel special! Yes, THAT kind of special.... LOL
Shout out to my road dawg Eyes on the Prize. She's hung in this with me for a long while now!!! Thanks, Shug!
Song of the Week
God's Got A Blessing (with your name on it) by Norman Hutchins
Good night y'all....
Friday, June 24, 2011
Did I Turn Him GAY?????
The other night my best friend, CaraMEL and I, were going down memory lane, recalling our wild times in college. She and I had some definite ho activities going on.... smh... lol
Anyway, I started to reminisce about the first guy I attempted to have sex with at college. His name was Byron and he was a Junior. His cousin was dating one of my suite mates so we hung out a lot. I met him outside of one of my speech classes and he and I connected over music and books. He had been one of the drum majors the year before, but had been sidelined due to a foot injury, so he had lots of free time for me.
So, we all went to a game in another town and got a room for the night. He had it all set up really nice. Music, strawberries, Boone's Farm (yes, the romantic-est of grocery store wines) and flowers. I was so excited!!! We got into bed and began kissing and stuff and then he tried to stuff the BIGGEST penis I had ever seen (and seen since) into my 18 year old vagina!!!! I was like, "Ohmigod, NO!" I tried to get him to slow down and do something else, but he still kept trying. I went to the bathroom and put a wet washcloth between my legs. I began to talk to myself and psyche myself up for going back out there. "I can do this... I am a Spartan (got that from NC17)... I have made boys cum at the drop of a hat... My stuff is good stuff!!!!"
I marched back out there ready to put it on him and he pounced on me again. OMIGOD!!!(now if I knew then what I know now, I'd made him lick it or something!!! I was not ready at all-- he was trying to split me wide open!!)
Anyway, I tried to make the best of it but I couldn't. Well, it actually didn't matter anyway... He kept trying to push in and came!!! He was like, "ummm girl, you must have some good stuff, because I came before I got it in." At the time, I was not an expert on sex and my own body, but I knew something was up.
The rest of the night was great. We cuddled, ate and watched TV. He didn't seem mad at all. We didn't really see each other much after that night. No hard feelings, we just didn't cross paths after my suite mate and his cousin broke up.
I heard a few months later that people were suspecting that Byron was GAY!!!If that is so, our encounter made a lot of sense. He didn't try to get some juices flowing down there + he liked it tight= butt wrangler. He was a Junior, at least 21 years old, you would think that he would know how to get a woman aroused.
Now this might not be funny to you, but now, all these years later-- I was dying laughing with Mel. I mean real tears down my face because this was hilarious. I had really just come to the this realization while I was talking to Mel. **This fione upperclassman was probably confused about his sexuality and tried to act hetero with me-- a young, hot in the tail freshman. I thought he was so cool for not being upset that we didn't do the do, but he was not really even interested! Did I turn him gay or did I just help him realize that vagina was not his cup of tea!
I have tried to find out if anyone from college remembers him and knows where he is, but I haven't had any luck.
Has anyone ever had this happen to them? Have you been with someone and then find out that they were gay sometime later? Talk to me...
Anyway, I started to reminisce about the first guy I attempted to have sex with at college. His name was Byron and he was a Junior. His cousin was dating one of my suite mates so we hung out a lot. I met him outside of one of my speech classes and he and I connected over music and books. He had been one of the drum majors the year before, but had been sidelined due to a foot injury, so he had lots of free time for me.
So, we all went to a game in another town and got a room for the night. He had it all set up really nice. Music, strawberries, Boone's Farm (yes, the romantic-est of grocery store wines) and flowers. I was so excited!!! We got into bed and began kissing and stuff and then he tried to stuff the BIGGEST penis I had ever seen (and seen since) into my 18 year old vagina!!!! I was like, "Ohmigod, NO!" I tried to get him to slow down and do something else, but he still kept trying. I went to the bathroom and put a wet washcloth between my legs. I began to talk to myself and psyche myself up for going back out there. "I can do this... I am a Spartan (got that from NC17)... I have made boys cum at the drop of a hat... My stuff is good stuff!!!!"
I marched back out there ready to put it on him and he pounced on me again. OMIGOD!!!(now if I knew then what I know now, I'd made him lick it or something!!! I was not ready at all-- he was trying to split me wide open!!)
Anyway, I tried to make the best of it but I couldn't. Well, it actually didn't matter anyway... He kept trying to push in and came!!! He was like, "ummm girl, you must have some good stuff, because I came before I got it in." At the time, I was not an expert on sex and my own body, but I knew something was up.
The rest of the night was great. We cuddled, ate and watched TV. He didn't seem mad at all. We didn't really see each other much after that night. No hard feelings, we just didn't cross paths after my suite mate and his cousin broke up.
I heard a few months later that people were suspecting that Byron was GAY!!!If that is so, our encounter made a lot of sense. He didn't try to get some juices flowing down there + he liked it tight= butt wrangler. He was a Junior, at least 21 years old, you would think that he would know how to get a woman aroused.
Now this might not be funny to you, but now, all these years later-- I was dying laughing with Mel. I mean real tears down my face because this was hilarious. I had really just come to the this realization while I was talking to Mel. **This fione upperclassman was probably confused about his sexuality and tried to act hetero with me-- a young, hot in the tail freshman. I thought he was so cool for not being upset that we didn't do the do, but he was not really even interested! Did I turn him gay or did I just help him realize that vagina was not his cup of tea!
I have tried to find out if anyone from college remembers him and knows where he is, but I haven't had any luck.
Has anyone ever had this happen to them? Have you been with someone and then find out that they were gay sometime later? Talk to me...
Monday, June 20, 2011
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Answers to some questions...
Eyes on the Prize had some questions about my last post. I thought about them for a few hours and began to draft a response. It got so long that I thought that I should put them into a new blog post. She asked for my honesty, so I will be as transparent as possible. I have already surprised myself with some of my answers....
Mel thinks that I will never get over him and move on. She thinks I am in a rut and living in the past. I get what she is saying because she and her son's father did that for years-- until she got pregnant with another man's kid and married the new guy. Her early marriage was rocky because of that. I do admit that I want things back to the way they use to be, but I am not sure that i am that girl anymore.So if I leave it as just sex and reliving memories I am safe. Hurt, but safe.
He's not ready to stop his running all over town. I want my man to be at home at night with me. Of course he can go out with his friends but most nights I want it to be me and him. My ex can't do that. He is caught up in the music scene and while he is very talented, his ego and stupidity get in the way of him getting anywhere. So, I think that he is wasting his time and he resents me for that. I resent him for loving music more than me and the kids. We can't be together because of that. Don't even factor in the fact that my dad would kill him if he laid eyes on him. My whole family would disown me... He has been a horrible father --neglecting our boys, not paying child support...
So, why do I still feel this way about him? When I think through my feelings I realize that we are apart for a good reason, but I still hold that torch... He is the love of my life. I have never loved anyone the way I love him... He will always be on the radar... We even joke that I will come to him the night before my wedding... sick joke, I know. When I met him we connected on something more than physical. We didn't even think about sleeping together until about 6 months after we met and started hanging out. We were friends first.. attracted to each other, but still wanting to have that friendship.
My dad says that the best way for me to get over him is to get under another man. (couldn't believe he said it myself!) That is where Young Buck came into the picture. But I did not feel right sleeping with him. I at least want someone that wants a relationship. He might have wanted one with me, but I think that he is too clingy. He is all up that girls butt!!! His latest facebook post says that he is enjoying being with his princess right now. So, he's with her, posting about being with her... EWWWW!! Too Much.....
So there it is.... my sad, confusing life.... Does anybody have anymore questions? The purpose for me starting to do this blog is so that I can sort through this mess and make some sense of it. I haven't done much of that because I am so inside of my head. These questions really have helped me to focus and really be honest with myself about somethings. So, don't just sit there, ask more questions... make comments. I see that there are people that come to the site from Eyes' blog, so I hope that you are reading. Ask me questions, make suggestions, tell me to let go of that man, hook me up with your brother.... SOMETHING!!!?!!??!
Eyes: Ok lemme rattle off some questions:
1. Why is your friend saying your making a mistake? Not that I am agreeing or disagreeing with her, I just wanna know her opinion?
SassyMe: Woah, that was a lot to think about. I will try to answer them as best as I can... Mel thinks that I will never get over him and move on. She thinks I am in a rut and living in the past. I get what she is saying because she and her son's father did that for years-- until she got pregnant with another man's kid and married the new guy. Her early marriage was rocky because of that. I do admit that I want things back to the way they use to be, but I am not sure that i am that girl anymore.So if I leave it as just sex and reliving memories I am safe. Hurt, but safe.
2. Why you callin it the walk of shame honey?
I felt ashamed going back to my car because it was 2:15 am, I was sneaking back into my house, when if I was with someone that really loved me I would be in my own bed.... Hmmm...3. Um, why is it that you broke up again? Refresh my mind for me girl.
We broke up because he didn't want to be married anymore... I think.... I got mad at him be cause he was gone all hours of the night playing gigs and carousing with the fellas. I think that he had met someone but had not slept with her at the time I went ballistic-- trying to cut and kill anybody in my wake.... He wanted to be single, so I let him be...4. What is it that you loving about him now?
I love him for that same reasons that he loves me. We have a history and children together. He can be so sweet and caring but then he can be so stupid that I cannot stand to be in the same room as him. I love the way his dyck makes me feel too. I am sprung all over it... Dyckmatized!!! 5. Is he single?
He is not single. He is living with the chick he met during our crazy time. I rather like being the one who he is cheating with... I know that is many shades of wrong, but it is the truth..He's not ready to stop his running all over town. I want my man to be at home at night with me. Of course he can go out with his friends but most nights I want it to be me and him. My ex can't do that. He is caught up in the music scene and while he is very talented, his ego and stupidity get in the way of him getting anywhere. So, I think that he is wasting his time and he resents me for that. I resent him for loving music more than me and the kids. We can't be together because of that. Don't even factor in the fact that my dad would kill him if he laid eyes on him. My whole family would disown me... He has been a horrible father --neglecting our boys, not paying child support...
So, why do I still feel this way about him? When I think through my feelings I realize that we are apart for a good reason, but I still hold that torch... He is the love of my life. I have never loved anyone the way I love him... He will always be on the radar... We even joke that I will come to him the night before my wedding... sick joke, I know. When I met him we connected on something more than physical. We didn't even think about sleeping together until about 6 months after we met and started hanging out. We were friends first.. attracted to each other, but still wanting to have that friendship.
My dad says that the best way for me to get over him is to get under another man. (couldn't believe he said it myself!) That is where Young Buck came into the picture. But I did not feel right sleeping with him. I at least want someone that wants a relationship. He might have wanted one with me, but I think that he is too clingy. He is all up that girls butt!!! His latest facebook post says that he is enjoying being with his princess right now. So, he's with her, posting about being with her... EWWWW!! Too Much.....
So there it is.... my sad, confusing life.... Does anybody have anymore questions? The purpose for me starting to do this blog is so that I can sort through this mess and make some sense of it. I haven't done much of that because I am so inside of my head. These questions really have helped me to focus and really be honest with myself about somethings. So, don't just sit there, ask more questions... make comments. I see that there are people that come to the site from Eyes' blog, so I hope that you are reading. Ask me questions, make suggestions, tell me to let go of that man, hook me up with your brother.... SOMETHING!!!?!!??!
Saturday, June 4, 2011
I've Been a Bad, Bad Girl!!! ( But It felt so very good)
Hello Friends.... *a-hem, is this thing on?*
I have been gone a while, almost a month. Let's recap...
So I told my nephew about that tramp, T, and her whorish ways. I know that it hurt him, but I am glad that I did, because he had been texting her, telling her how he still had feelings and she was saying that he had made her day and she felt the same. Whateva heffa, but she did not tell him that she had invited old dude, TK, to her niece and nephew's birthday party while my nephew was out of town. I did not reveal all of that to him, but I did tell him that she was trying to talk to TK. I didn't tell him about the texts she sent him--that nasty ho-- and how she wanted TK to come to the beach with her for Memorial Day. I think I'm gonna leave it alone. I did what I could.
My oldest child is acting crazy. He thinks that he can come and go as he pleases. Well, that triffling nicca is going to live with his father. We only have 2 more days of school, and then he's otta here!!! I cannot do it anymore. I am afraid that one of us will go to jail.
Young Buck is still the one that gets me going, but I have met someone new,Mason. He is okay, but he doesn't get me too excited. He is just someone to text during the day and someone to take me to dinner... that is when school is not killing me.
I ended up with decent grades for the spring semester, but this summer class is killing me. I am supposed to be writing a 10 page paper due on Tuesday, but I have not typed one single, solitary word yet! This blog post is just another in a long line of diversions I have used this week.
Now to the bad, bad girl stuff....
I am pretty tame, I try to be a good Holy Ghost filled little girl, but I slip up from time to time. So what I have done may not be as scandalous as others, it is definitely not in my character....
Last week I snuck out of my house in the middle of the night (so that my kids wouldn't wake up)to meet my ex husband in an empty apartment to have sex. He was cleaning the apartment for his landlord and still had to clean the carpets and other stuff. I have been so out of my mind because of my kid and school work that I needed a diversion. And baby, was it ever a good one. Now, the devil and I have been in and out of a sexual relationship ever since we divorced and I have always had mixed feelings. I still am in love with the person that he USED to be and I know that he still loves who he THINKS I still am, so that makes our encounters DY-NO-MITE! I was so turned on as I drove to meet him. I had even sent him a dirty picture earlier that night and he had sent me one that morning. This is soooo out of character for me, but I am turned on by doing things that are not my nature.
He had been drinking a little at the band rehearsal he had just come from so he was really affectionate. He brought candles, a nice comforter and some music and snacks. I was very surprised when I saw him carrying all of this to the house. After a tour of the tri-level apartment, which was nice and reminded us of our first apartment, he began his seduction...
I won't give details, but that was the best 2 hours that I have had in a long while. But some troubling things did happen.... he told me that he really loved me and he knew that I didn't believe him-- I want to , but I don't AND I told him that I loved him too--- I want to, but I can't!!! Oh, no!!!!!
What am I going to do? I think that I meant it, but i can't be with him. I played it off by saying that even though we have these feelings, the sex wouldn't be as good if we were together, we'd be fighting all of time. He just looked at me and kept going.
Well, I walked the walk of shame with him out to my car at 2:30 AM and he kissed me ever so tenderly. I drove home still feeling good and very sleepy!He texted me and then called about an hour later-- after he had finished what ever he was doing. He still says that he loves me and that he can't get enough.
My little sistah/bestie CaraMEL says that I making a mistake and I will only hurt myself in the long run. I haven't told any of the other sistahs because they will kill me. But they are all married and can get some of that love and affection anytime. I did tell EYES that I wouldn't get involved with him again, but after 6 months of not getting any I HAD to break that promise! I have the weekend to get some space, but he has already called and texted today!
So that's what I have been up to in the past few weeks... What'cha think?
SassyMe
I have been gone a while, almost a month. Let's recap...
So I told my nephew about that tramp, T, and her whorish ways. I know that it hurt him, but I am glad that I did, because he had been texting her, telling her how he still had feelings and she was saying that he had made her day and she felt the same. Whateva heffa, but she did not tell him that she had invited old dude, TK, to her niece and nephew's birthday party while my nephew was out of town. I did not reveal all of that to him, but I did tell him that she was trying to talk to TK. I didn't tell him about the texts she sent him--that nasty ho-- and how she wanted TK to come to the beach with her for Memorial Day. I think I'm gonna leave it alone. I did what I could.
My oldest child is acting crazy. He thinks that he can come and go as he pleases. Well, that triffling nicca is going to live with his father. We only have 2 more days of school, and then he's otta here!!! I cannot do it anymore. I am afraid that one of us will go to jail.
Young Buck is still the one that gets me going, but I have met someone new,Mason. He is okay, but he doesn't get me too excited. He is just someone to text during the day and someone to take me to dinner... that is when school is not killing me.
I ended up with decent grades for the spring semester, but this summer class is killing me. I am supposed to be writing a 10 page paper due on Tuesday, but I have not typed one single, solitary word yet! This blog post is just another in a long line of diversions I have used this week.
Now to the bad, bad girl stuff....
I am pretty tame, I try to be a good Holy Ghost filled little girl, but I slip up from time to time. So what I have done may not be as scandalous as others, it is definitely not in my character....
Last week I snuck out of my house in the middle of the night (so that my kids wouldn't wake up)to meet my ex husband in an empty apartment to have sex. He was cleaning the apartment for his landlord and still had to clean the carpets and other stuff. I have been so out of my mind because of my kid and school work that I needed a diversion. And baby, was it ever a good one. Now, the devil and I have been in and out of a sexual relationship ever since we divorced and I have always had mixed feelings. I still am in love with the person that he USED to be and I know that he still loves who he THINKS I still am, so that makes our encounters DY-NO-MITE! I was so turned on as I drove to meet him. I had even sent him a dirty picture earlier that night and he had sent me one that morning. This is soooo out of character for me, but I am turned on by doing things that are not my nature.
He had been drinking a little at the band rehearsal he had just come from so he was really affectionate. He brought candles, a nice comforter and some music and snacks. I was very surprised when I saw him carrying all of this to the house. After a tour of the tri-level apartment, which was nice and reminded us of our first apartment, he began his seduction...
I won't give details, but that was the best 2 hours that I have had in a long while. But some troubling things did happen.... he told me that he really loved me and he knew that I didn't believe him-- I want to , but I don't AND I told him that I loved him too--- I want to, but I can't!!! Oh, no!!!!!
What am I going to do? I think that I meant it, but i can't be with him. I played it off by saying that even though we have these feelings, the sex wouldn't be as good if we were together, we'd be fighting all of time. He just looked at me and kept going.
Well, I walked the walk of shame with him out to my car at 2:30 AM and he kissed me ever so tenderly. I drove home still feeling good and very sleepy!He texted me and then called about an hour later-- after he had finished what ever he was doing. He still says that he loves me and that he can't get enough.
My little sistah/bestie CaraMEL says that I making a mistake and I will only hurt myself in the long run. I haven't told any of the other sistahs because they will kill me. But they are all married and can get some of that love and affection anytime. I did tell EYES that I wouldn't get involved with him again, but after 6 months of not getting any I HAD to break that promise! I have the weekend to get some space, but he has already called and texted today!
So that's what I have been up to in the past few weeks... What'cha think?
SassyMe
Sunday, April 17, 2011
I know that I said that I was going to leave this alone. My nephew (D) and this older woman (T) thing has been killing me. He is now almost 21 so I was going to let him live his own life, but this chick is still loony. I mean, what woman does not want to talk to her man every day? She says that a text or two a day is sufficient. As of today, they have not spoken at all in about 10 days. What kind of crap is that!!??! Anyway, this time my nephew has his head on better about her. She wants it just casual and he can't do casual so he broke up with her by text. She refuses to accept this, but won't talk to him about it. She says that God can fix it. yadda yadda yadda. As far as he is concerned they are over and he is single again. They both have hidden their relationship status'. She did that days before he did. * so childish* So you'd think that I'd be happy right?
Well here is the kicker... Today a good friend of mine called me over between Sunday School and church to tell me something that was troubling her. T just purchased her first home and was in some need of landscaping so she called my friend's brother, TK, (who is also The Professor's brother) to give her an estimate. While he was there he was feeling like she was trying to come on to him. TK called his sister because he knew that D my nephew and T the older woman were in a relationship, according to facebook. She then asked him if TK had any friends to hook her up with. He felt really uncomfortable and didn't know what to say. So he got out of there and called his sister to see what was up and if T and D were still together. My informant told me that this happened about 2 or 3 weeks ago and that she didn't know how to tell me.
That HEFFA!!! I knew she was no good!!! I want to mash her head into the floor and jump up and down on top of her. How could she do this to him? But that is how stupid she is though. TK, D's father and The Professor used to hang when they were teenagers and in their early 20's. That makes TK about 12 to 15 years older than T. What makes her think that her dirt won't get back to somebody!? I tell you, she's a fool. That is another reason she should not be with D.
I am posting this because I cannot tell my nephew about it. It would break his heart. She has already changed him and made him able to pull away from his emotions. This would really really devastate him. So this was my confessional. I have to leave this here.
Sassyme
Well here is the kicker... Today a good friend of mine called me over between Sunday School and church to tell me something that was troubling her. T just purchased her first home and was in some need of landscaping so she called my friend's brother, TK, (who is also The Professor's brother) to give her an estimate. While he was there he was feeling like she was trying to come on to him. TK called his sister because he knew that D my nephew and T the older woman were in a relationship, according to facebook. She then asked him if TK had any friends to hook her up with. He felt really uncomfortable and didn't know what to say. So he got out of there and called his sister to see what was up and if T and D were still together. My informant told me that this happened about 2 or 3 weeks ago and that she didn't know how to tell me.
That HEFFA!!! I knew she was no good!!! I want to mash her head into the floor and jump up and down on top of her. How could she do this to him? But that is how stupid she is though. TK, D's father and The Professor used to hang when they were teenagers and in their early 20's. That makes TK about 12 to 15 years older than T. What makes her think that her dirt won't get back to somebody!? I tell you, she's a fool. That is another reason she should not be with D.
I am posting this because I cannot tell my nephew about it. It would break his heart. She has already changed him and made him able to pull away from his emotions. This would really really devastate him. So this was my confessional. I have to leave this here.
Sassyme
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Update....
I am still standing... a little weary from the battle, but still here. My dad came through surgery ok. Lots of pain, but they got the entire tumor. He also had 6 inches of his rib removed. My mom says that this is standard and I did not get to talk to the doctor, so I don't know. He is home now, so I am glad. This is about the first time that I hate living 2 hours away from them.
My kids are still the same. J is beasting at lacrosse, a game I still don't understand. He is one of the only black kids that play at his school. It really is a rich kid's sport. My goodness, the cleats were almost $100 on sale!!! He is having fun though and being fairly decent so I won't complain.
D is still my road dawg. He loves to go everywhere with me. I am worried about some of the kids that he is hanging with though. J said that he saw him smoking cigarettes with them last month. His dad hit the roof. He thought that I meant weed and he raced over here. It was funny when D told him that he didn't have a say in his life since he had left us! Painful for my baby, but satisfying for me.
Work has been interesting. With all of the job cuts in the schools, everyone is on the defensive. Folks just trippin all of the time. I am trying to stay low because I need to keep my job! Little D's gotta eat.
Our single is coming out in 8 days. I am so ready. It will be on Amazon and iTunes as well as our Reverbnation page. I can taste my dreams about to come true!!!
My heart is a little broken because of Young Buck. I understand that he had to move on and date somebody that was actually going to sleep with him. No problemo. He has needs, what we had was fun, casual. But he has also abandoned our group. That is why my heart is broken. I cannot fathom why he would do that to us. The bum!
Nothing else really going on. I am so thankful and grateful for my dad getting through the surgery and my mom has been a real trooper.
I just wanted to post something because it has been a long while since I have posted anything. My life has been really boring anyway. (that's fine, I kinda like it that way)
Good night all... Maybe something interesting will happen tomorrow.
My kids are still the same. J is beasting at lacrosse, a game I still don't understand. He is one of the only black kids that play at his school. It really is a rich kid's sport. My goodness, the cleats were almost $100 on sale!!! He is having fun though and being fairly decent so I won't complain.
D is still my road dawg. He loves to go everywhere with me. I am worried about some of the kids that he is hanging with though. J said that he saw him smoking cigarettes with them last month. His dad hit the roof. He thought that I meant weed and he raced over here. It was funny when D told him that he didn't have a say in his life since he had left us! Painful for my baby, but satisfying for me.
Work has been interesting. With all of the job cuts in the schools, everyone is on the defensive. Folks just trippin all of the time. I am trying to stay low because I need to keep my job! Little D's gotta eat.
Our single is coming out in 8 days. I am so ready. It will be on Amazon and iTunes as well as our Reverbnation page. I can taste my dreams about to come true!!!
My heart is a little broken because of Young Buck. I understand that he had to move on and date somebody that was actually going to sleep with him. No problemo. He has needs, what we had was fun, casual. But he has also abandoned our group. That is why my heart is broken. I cannot fathom why he would do that to us. The bum!
Nothing else really going on. I am so thankful and grateful for my dad getting through the surgery and my mom has been a real trooper.
I just wanted to post something because it has been a long while since I have posted anything. My life has been really boring anyway. (that's fine, I kinda like it that way)
Good night all... Maybe something interesting will happen tomorrow.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Life As I Know It...
Life has been really hectic. I cannot seem to keep up with my school work, my kids are losing their minds, my daddy is having a tumor removed from his kidney, the Young Buck has moved on....
There are so many things that have happened, I can't keep up!!
I had to cut my hours on my 2nd job, in order to catch up, so that cuts into my money. The Ex hubby is still not consistent with giving my money. Y'all please pray for me!
I am not that concerned about the Young Buck. It wasn't really going anywhere. Whatev....
D was caught smoking cigarettes after school one day. His dad did come to get in his face about that, but that was the last time they saw him... 2 weeks ago. D gave him a good cussin out though! Told him that I was his mom and DAD and that he could kick rocks!
J is playing lacrosse and doing well, but his grades leave much to be desired. He is doing well enough to be in sports and that is all.
I am so tired of being a parent on my own. This really sucks. i love them, but I want them gone-- only because I am sick of being solely responsible for them.
My dad got sick at the beginning of this year and went to the ER. There were several possibilities for his constant dehydration and the final diagnosis is a tumor in/on the kidney. I do not know specifics becuase I cannot handle it right now. His surgery is March 31st and they will not know if they can save the kidney until they get in there. I am praying for his complete healing and recovery. His is my everything... my dad, my
champion, my mediator with my mom, the father my kids need, my sounding board--My Daddy!!!!
I have this off my chest, so i can go to bed tonight. It has been weighing heavily in my spirit.
Good night all
There are so many things that have happened, I can't keep up!!
I had to cut my hours on my 2nd job, in order to catch up, so that cuts into my money. The Ex hubby is still not consistent with giving my money. Y'all please pray for me!
I am not that concerned about the Young Buck. It wasn't really going anywhere. Whatev....
D was caught smoking cigarettes after school one day. His dad did come to get in his face about that, but that was the last time they saw him... 2 weeks ago. D gave him a good cussin out though! Told him that I was his mom and DAD and that he could kick rocks!
J is playing lacrosse and doing well, but his grades leave much to be desired. He is doing well enough to be in sports and that is all.
I am so tired of being a parent on my own. This really sucks. i love them, but I want them gone-- only because I am sick of being solely responsible for them.
My dad got sick at the beginning of this year and went to the ER. There were several possibilities for his constant dehydration and the final diagnosis is a tumor in/on the kidney. I do not know specifics becuase I cannot handle it right now. His surgery is March 31st and they will not know if they can save the kidney until they get in there. I am praying for his complete healing and recovery. His is my everything... my dad, my
champion, my mediator with my mom, the father my kids need, my sounding board--My Daddy!!!!
I have this off my chest, so i can go to bed tonight. It has been weighing heavily in my spirit.
Good night all
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Here We Go Again...
I thought that this crap was over!!! How desperate can you be? How stupid can you be? I have to let this go, but I need to get some things off of my chest first.
I just got a phone call from one of my best friends. She told me to go to Facebookand look at my nephew's page. And there it was, he is in a relationship with that old woman, again!!! Unbelievable. If you have no idea what I am talking about, check out this post .
Anyway, I knew that something was going on with them because D's sister told me that she thought that they were together. She also came to one of our performances this past weekend. No big deal. He is going to be 21 in June and she will turn 28 before that. I still think that they are stupid, but I was not going to make waves over this until I saw the Facebook post. They have been together for many weeks now, but did not tell anyone or post to Facebook until it was official. Official!!????!?!?! This is not the 10th grade! You should not think that a Facebook post as a way of validating your relationship. So that's the problem for me. His head should kinda still be in that kid mentality, but her head should not. She is knocking on 30! I know that I sound like a fool, but I don't want him to throw his life or these good years away on this hussy!
I have have talked to one of my best friends about this, so I will have to out this out of my mind. I can't let it consume me like it did last April. Anyway people will just accuse me of being jealous because I don't have a man. That is not my reason for my feelings and they don't know what I have going on either!
Thanks for listening. I have a long day tomorrow and I need to pray and get this off of my heart.
SassyMe
I just got a phone call from one of my best friends. She told me to go to Facebookand look at my nephew's page. And there it was, he is in a relationship with that old woman, again!!! Unbelievable. If you have no idea what I am talking about, check out this post .
Anyway, I knew that something was going on with them because D's sister told me that she thought that they were together. She also came to one of our performances this past weekend. No big deal. He is going to be 21 in June and she will turn 28 before that. I still think that they are stupid, but I was not going to make waves over this until I saw the Facebook post. They have been together for many weeks now, but did not tell anyone or post to Facebook until it was official. Official!!????!?!?! This is not the 10th grade! You should not think that a Facebook post as a way of validating your relationship. So that's the problem for me. His head should kinda still be in that kid mentality, but her head should not. She is knocking on 30! I know that I sound like a fool, but I don't want him to throw his life or these good years away on this hussy!
I have have talked to one of my best friends about this, so I will have to out this out of my mind. I can't let it consume me like it did last April. Anyway people will just accuse me of being jealous because I don't have a man. That is not my reason for my feelings and they don't know what I have going on either!
Thanks for listening. I have a long day tomorrow and I need to pray and get this off of my heart.
SassyMe
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
A Surprise Today
I was on my way to work, a few minutes late because I had stopped at McDonald's for some oatmeal-- which I LOVE by the way--and who pulled up beside me at the light? Sighhhh! yes, it was him, my Young Buck. I had noticed a SUV that looked like his following me for about a mile, but I had no idea it was him. But I am so glad. It was good to see him.
He is a teacher too and his school is about 7 miles from mine. I guess that he was late and didn't care. He teaches high school English and Civics and they start way earlier than elementary schools. Anyway he was looking most delectable as he waved. The light turned green and I made the left, he kept straight. Oh what I would have given for a few minutes alone with him this morning!
The embarrassing thing is that he saw me doing the sing in the rear view mirror to the top of my lungs thing that I do in the car!!! I don't care who else sees me, but Young Buck... different story. lol
I won't see him this weekend because he is going to a Chicago Steppers thing in ATL. I'm gonna miss him. We have spent the last 3 Sunday afternoons together at rehearsal and dinner. *pout* I will be in full on withdrawal by next Sunday. I may take to my bed!!!
I finally got my kiss and it was okay, kinda rushed, but okay. (smile) We'll see what happens next time.
Have a great week y'all.... I have more to say but it is time for bed, so stay tuned for the recap of my kid's birthdays and how I ended up spending it with my ex!!
He is a teacher too and his school is about 7 miles from mine. I guess that he was late and didn't care. He teaches high school English and Civics and they start way earlier than elementary schools. Anyway he was looking most delectable as he waved. The light turned green and I made the left, he kept straight. Oh what I would have given for a few minutes alone with him this morning!
The embarrassing thing is that he saw me doing the sing in the rear view mirror to the top of my lungs thing that I do in the car!!! I don't care who else sees me, but Young Buck... different story. lol
I won't see him this weekend because he is going to a Chicago Steppers thing in ATL. I'm gonna miss him. We have spent the last 3 Sunday afternoons together at rehearsal and dinner. *pout* I will be in full on withdrawal by next Sunday. I may take to my bed!!!
I finally got my kiss and it was okay, kinda rushed, but okay. (smile) We'll see what happens next time.
Have a great week y'all.... I have more to say but it is time for bed, so stay tuned for the recap of my kid's birthdays and how I ended up spending it with my ex!!
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Shopping at Wally World
So, I went shopping today with my youngest boy-- D. It was an all day affair-- Walmart and Sam's. I spent Waaaaayy too much money, but we needed every bit of it.
While we were in Walmart we kept running across a particular Indian family. There were 2 kids, one woman and three men. Everywhere I went in Wally World I saw them congregating around the merchandise as if paying 32 cent more for a bottle of Clorox was going to cause a World War. I get that times are tough, I'm struggling pay check to check myself, but do you have to clog up the aisles with 6 people to buy some Tilex? Really!??!?!?!?! They stood right in the aisle talking with the Tilex in one and another cleaner in the other, with their cart and there were at least 5 other people trying to navigate the same aisle. I thought one woman was going to "kirk-off" on them. *Shout out to Lil Mama for the "kirk-off reference* She almost ran the little woman down!
I get that other cultures have a great respect for the extended family and that they are patriarchal societies, but really?!?!?! sheesh!
Since that is off my chest, I'm gonna get me a big ole yeast roll and some chicken salad and drink one of my industrial soft drinks and go to bed!!!
Sassyme
While we were in Walmart we kept running across a particular Indian family. There were 2 kids, one woman and three men. Everywhere I went in Wally World I saw them congregating around the merchandise as if paying 32 cent more for a bottle of Clorox was going to cause a World War. I get that times are tough, I'm struggling pay check to check myself, but do you have to clog up the aisles with 6 people to buy some Tilex? Really!??!?!?!?! They stood right in the aisle talking with the Tilex in one and another cleaner in the other, with their cart and there were at least 5 other people trying to navigate the same aisle. I thought one woman was going to "kirk-off" on them. *Shout out to Lil Mama for the "kirk-off reference* She almost ran the little woman down!
I get that other cultures have a great respect for the extended family and that they are patriarchal societies, but really?!?!?! sheesh!
Since that is off my chest, I'm gonna get me a big ole yeast roll and some chicken salad and drink one of my industrial soft drinks and go to bed!!!
Sassyme
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Music
I haven't posted a video in a minute so I am posting one for a song that has been running through my head for a minute...
I have always love, love, loved SWV- Sisters With Voices!
It has been a long time since I have really felt this way about anybody, but this song playing on repeat in my brain. Enjoy!
SassyMe
P.S. I know that this is gonna make me sound old, but THIS is real music and singing. That other crap out there can kick rocks man, bring back 90's R&B!
I have always love, love, loved SWV- Sisters With Voices!
It has been a long time since I have really felt this way about anybody, but this song playing on repeat in my brain. Enjoy!
SassyMe
P.S. I know that this is gonna make me sound old, but THIS is real music and singing. That other crap out there can kick rocks man, bring back 90's R&B!
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Hulu Magic
Happy New Year friends! Twenty- Eleven is destined to be a great year. I am moving towards my purpose professionally (teaching) & spiritually. So excited!
But today I am ensconced in front of my laptop watching Hulu. I am having a ball. Since the cable is off, (again- I'd rather buy boots & dresses than pay some bills. So sue me!) I have been watching all of the old shows that I loved that were cancelled. ABC had some really good shows like What About Brian? , Dirty Sexy Money, and Samantha Who? that were cancelled before they should have. They are really good shows! I have a queue with over 60 shows in it! Hulu also has the best thing ever... 21 Jump Street! I relish the hours I have to swoon over the pre-weird Johnny Depp. So hot!
Anyway, I cannot get enough of what is on Hulu. It is magic!
But today I am ensconced in front of my laptop watching Hulu. I am having a ball. Since the cable is off, (again- I'd rather buy boots & dresses than pay some bills. So sue me!) I have been watching all of the old shows that I loved that were cancelled. ABC had some really good shows like What About Brian? , Dirty Sexy Money, and Samantha Who? that were cancelled before they should have. They are really good shows! I have a queue with over 60 shows in it! Hulu also has the best thing ever... 21 Jump Street! I relish the hours I have to swoon over the pre-weird Johnny Depp. So hot!
Anyway, I cannot get enough of what is on Hulu. It is magic!
Last night I went to a pre Watch Night dinner party hosted by my good friends the Slaters. My other friends Prettyface & T- Bone were there as well. We had an absolute ball. Good food, good company & Wii Just Dance! I am in love! The bad thing is that we have XBox & no Kinect so I can't play the game. I guess that when tax time comes I'll be buying the Kinect & Dance Central for the XBox. I cannot wait. I hope that I keep this passion for the game. It is good exercise & baby I need it.
Another splenderific thing that happened is that our group finally went into the studio! It was the most exhilarating experience ever. I was nervous, but we sounded beautiful! I can't wait until the single is released. Since we are independent, it will be on CD Baby & iTunes instead of stores. I expect all of you, my readers to purchase a copy. You won't regret it. The links will be coming soon. Hopefully.
Young Buck was there & silly, attentive & flirty as ever. I just love the way he makes me feel. I forget that I have two almost grown kids @ home. I feel so young & carefree. He makes me want to do dangerous things! Not a good thing.... After the session, which is long & a lot of waiting for vocalists, we ate dinner @ Waffle House. Not 5 star, but adequate. He flirted like no tomorrow. He even tried for a kiss. You know, I might as well give up & give in. Kiss the man. He may be just what I am looking for. Maybe. Eyes, I know that you'll have some advice or some comment that will get me to thinking. I really appreciate that. I know that there are a couple others out there @ least passing through from time to time, I'd love to hear from you too.
I do have a new follower, Milky Way, so I'm up to three (yay!) & I've read your blog & girl you make a sistah have to think- I love it!
So that's my first blog of 2011. A little long, but all me!
Love you & have a blessed new year!
Sassyme
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